I Dont Ever Wanna Lose My Best Friend (Pierce The Veil Fan Fiction)

Chapter 8: Bite Your Lip And Fake It

~Julia's P.O.V~

Its been about a week since Dakota got Jaimes phone call.

And thats all she can talk about, her and Jamie have gotten really close. She barely talks to me, unless its about Jaime.

Today was Josh's new year party and they're always, always legendary. Meaning, everyone will be there. The only reason im going is because of Dakota. 

Currently, im laying in bed, at 3 o'clock in the morning. Me and Dakota stayed up on the phone for while but im still wide awake. All we did yesterday was sleep and listen to Dakotas storys of her and Jaimes conversation. So much fun, right?

Im not trying to be rude or anything but i just feel lonley latley, all she does is talk and talk and talk about Jaime. I mean, dont get me wrong, i love the guy and its amazing how he spontaniously just decided to call her but now its starting to get out of hand. I feel replaced.

Haha she doesnt like you anymoreeeee.
"Shut the fuck up, you dont know anything. " Lately ive found myself having conversations with me, even though im not Schizophrenic...
Oh, contrare. I know everythingg.
"Oh really? How so?"
Its in the clear that she doesnt even ask you how youre doing anymore, shes just worried about Jaime and her little fuck boy, Josh.
The point got across to me.
"And youre sure about this?" I started hypervenilating, i knew what was coming.
Me and Jesse are the only ones who care anymore, Julia.
"Wait.. if your me how can we be freinds?" Tears were streaming down my face as i hugged my knees to my chest and rocked back and forth.
Honey, you see, im not just inside of you.
Thats when she appeared in front of me. Suprisingly i didnt scream, i didnt do anything. I just kept rocking back and forth, silently crying. Her ghost-like apperance scooted closer to me.
If you think about it, we could do everything Dakota never even thought of doing with you.
She seethed the words of venom through my ears and into my vains.
"Like what?" I rested my head in my knees and began to cry even more at the thought of Dakota hating me because shes found a new best friend.
Well i would yell at you when you self harm or when you think about killing yourself...
She got up, went into my bathroom and returned moments later with a razor in her hand.
Here ya go, darlin! I looked up and she gave me the razor then sat the the foot of the bed. She nodded her head enthusiasticly and gave me a double thumbs up. I whipped away my tears with my free hand and looked at the blade.
"You think i should?" I looked away from the blade and to her face.
Well if it makes you feel better, go for it.
She smiled.
"Youre not mad?"
True friends dont get mad when their friend partakes in something that makes them happy.
I thought of it for a second.
"Then i should be mad at Dakota cause Jaime makes her happy..." Before i could continue she cut me off.
No! She doesnt care about you so you should care about her!
"Uh.." I stammered, tears stung my eyes again. "Youre right. Thanks."
Anytime doll, thats what best freind are for. She winked and with that she was gone.
Looks like i have a new friend.
I looked down at my blade and burst into tears again, i gripped it between my pointer finger and thumb. Without realizing it i swiftly slashed my wrists and thighs. When i was done i was a mess and sleep was overwhelming.
I gladly gave in, unprepared for the rest of the day.
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~Jesse's P.O.V~

"Ughhhh." I groaned as i rolled over, i looked at the clock. 11:35, Greattt.
I got up and walked off to the bathroom, peed, brushed my hair and teeth and walked to Julias door. I quietly opened the door and tip toed in, she looked so peaceful. I lightly shook her whispering, "Juliiiaaaaaaa. Jewels, sweety, wake up. We have band practice in an hour and a half." She just kept softly snoring.
"Ugh, you always make this difficult." I muttered before ripping the blankets off her and gasping.
"Oh my god." She lay there sleeping in a tank top and her underwear but i didnt care about that, i looked at her torn up thighs and wrists.
"Jewels, no." i lay on the opposite side of the bed, next to her. In her sleeping state she imediately reconizes a body and she cuddled up to me. I played with her hair, i love my sister to death. She was so misterable and i didnt even know it.
That was gonna end soon.
I looked at her clock and realized id been laying there for a half hour. I poked her until her eyes opened.
"Jesse what the fuck do you wantttt." She glared at me.
"We have practice in a hour and we have to pick Dakota up." I seen hurt flash on her face when i said Dakota. We both sat up. She placed her hands inher lap and looked down. I lightly ran my finger across her thighs where her cuts were.
"Whats wrong, doll." She looked up at me with tears in her eyes.
"I have no one anymore. Dakotas found a new best friend and im pretty sure she hates me now." I wraped my arms around her and she cried into my chest. After a minute she pulled away.
"I need to take a shower, thanks big bro." She started to get up but i lightly grabbed her wrist, not wanting to hurt her. I stood and turned her wrist over so we could both see her cuts that were crusty with dried blood.
"Promise me, no more of this." She looked up at me and we make eye contact.
"Ill try my best." I gave her a flustrated look.
"No Julia, promise me. No more of this. I cant stand seeing you hurt like this and as offical big brother i need you to promise. I know you have history with self harm thats ended in the hospital but you need to promise me. I love you so much baby girl." I kissed her forehead and looked at her. She bit her lip and muttered that she promised and she loved me too. I gave her a quick hug and headed for her door.
I hope she keeps her promise.