I'm not that strong!

Shep's Perspective

(Just a few things before you read if you didn't see before, tw, b-dy sh-ming and s--c-d-l th--ghts.  Also in this oneshot, Shep goes to university and Dom works at a part-time job, oh yeah they're humans also. Hope you enjoy it!)

I came back from class, how the hell anyone understood what he was explaining I don't know, I was extremely happy to see Dom as I am everyday, I came through the front door, trying to find the right key, finally, got it. He wasn't in the living room like he was normally, did I get the days mixed up again? Hm, well I should go change, I went to our bed room and saw Dom asleep. There he was.

Eagerly, I sat down next to him and started to, I guess, just lean on him? I don't know, either way he was absolutely adorable. But before I knew what was happening he just started to cry, It seemed as though he was crying the entire day.

"Dom what's wrong?" I asked, honestly quite worried.

"It's nothing." He tried to wipe off the tears frantically, what did he have to hide?

"Are you sure everything's okay Dom?"

"Really, it's nothing, don't worry about it." He just looked away from me.

"Dom..." I was really worried at this point, what happened?

Is something wrong? Has something been wrong and he's just telling me this now?

"Dom you have to tell me what's going on, I'm really worried."

"ITS NOTHING!" He screamed.

The scream really startled me, we never yelled at each other. After that Dom immediately gasped and just laid his head down on my lap.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry"

He just kept repeating that, like a broken record.

I grabbed ahold of his hand and said it was okay, he's never acted like this before, he's always been more confident.

"Dom, something is wrong, what is it?"

Dom sighed, "I'm, I-I'm scared." I could see tears start wallowing up in his eyes.

"What are you scared about?" My head is just whirling at this point.

"Everything really" he replied

Huh?

"I'm scared of losing my job, I'm scared of being bullied because of me being so fat, I'm scared that you secretly hate me, I'm scared that you'll leave me, I'm scared that nobody actually loves me and I'm just a fat nobody loser, and I'll just have no one to rely on, no one to touch, no one to love."

He's never been like this before, what happened?

"Dom, everything is going to be okay, you'll get through this, you're so strong, and kind and amazing and-"

"I'M NOT THAT STRONG!"

Him yelling startled me again. Dom gasped once again and just started apologizing profusely, tears just running like rivers down his face.

"Dom, it's okay, you don't need to apologize."

"A-Are you sure?"

"I'm sure. B-But what do you mean you aren't strong, you're the strongest out of both of us."

Dom sighed, "This, This isn't who I am, I'm not a strong, confident jock, it's all just what I've wanted to be. I'm nothing more than a liar, a fat little deceiving fuck."

My heart began to sink,

"Dom, you really are the strongest out of both of us, you're so strong for just being able to tell me this."

Dom just sat there, tears falling down his face.

After a while he replied, "I'm just, scared, I'm so fucking scared."

Dom laid his head in my lap again, "Sometimes days are good, sometimes it's good to be happy, but that happens so rarely now that everything's just becomes a huge pain. Living is a pain, I have no motivation to do anything anymore, I just,"

"I just want it to end."

My heart dropped more than it's ever before, without thinking I just hugged Dom, I could feel his tears, I don't care anymore, I just need to let Dom know I love him and that he is important.

"Dom, please believe me when I say I'll love you no matter what, nobody can change that. I'll love you on your best and worst days, just please believe me when I say that you mean a lot to me and that you mean something in this world."

Dom immediately started bawling, "I-I just can't stop being s-scared, scared I'll lose y-you, scared I'll lose my friends, scared I'll just lose everything that ever has or had been important to me."

"I'll never leave you Dom, that's an absolute fucking promise."

"Well, well what about Bones? And Agnes, and Tangy? How are they gonna react when they find out I'm just an obese fraud?"

"Dom, please, you aren't obese, not even close, your body is perfect just like you are. And, and I don't know, but, hey, even if they leave, at least you'll still have me right?"

Dom let out a chuckle through his sobs, that's a start.

And it seemed like right after that the chaos was over, Dom was exhausted by just admitting all of that and just collapsed on my stomach. He was so adorable like always, I hope he'll be truly happy now that he doesn't have to put up that dumb act anymore, I wanna know Dom for who he really is.