What She Believes In.

My beliefs.

To start with, everyone believes in something. I may not speak the best english and use the best words to express how I feel and all but I do know the few words I’ve been looking for to express what I believe in.

Looking through social media, it got me thinking and wondering: What do I actually believe in? Now, when I asked myself this question, I wasn’t implying to simple answers like “I believe in my family” or like “I believe in my laptop not shutting down”. 

Instead, this question is directed to the secondary aspect of ourselves. Come to think about it, there are many things I believe in, actually.

Without a second thought, the word ‘destiny’ and ‘fate’ first came to my mind. Not being to fully grasp the concept of destiny and fate, I went to google that word, and 2 definitions came up from google; the first one being “The events that will necessarily happen to a particular person or thing in the future” and the second one being “The hidden power believed to control future events”.

As for fate, the 2 definitions that I want to mention are “the development of events outside a person's control, regarded as predetermined by a supernatural power.” and “be destined to happen, turn out, or act in a particular way.” 

I know, you are now questioning me on why did those 2 words strike me the most when it comes to believing? Usually, primarily, seeing is believing. What I mean by that is that to me, I wouldn’t believe anything if there’s no proof.

For example, I don’t really believe in a religion. Why? Because no proof has been placed in front of me yet. However in this case, ‘destiny’ and ‘fate’ is different. I’m not really a believer in long-term action and reaction, which means that I don’t believe that what we do present time fully affects what happens in future.

People might think that this is “a girl thing” but this isn’t the case because I’ve been seeing the effects of ‘destiny’ and ‘fate’. I’m not talking solely on relationships but life in general. But since relationships are what all teens talk about these days, I’ll start with my explanation in the ‘relationship’ aspect.

Even though I’ve not experience this foreign term called ‘relationship’ before, I’ve heard stories about this fascinating thing called love in a relationship. As much as people fantasize about love and relationships, there bound to relationships that would not last and there would definitely be broken couples everywhere. It’s true that some people fall out because of a cheating party or because of some personal issues. But what about couples who break-up because of… lost feelings?

I understand that couples go through this period called the ‘honeymoon period’, then comes the hell period, where couples constantly fight and problems constantly come and go, but what about the ‘lost feelings’ couples has in relationships? You can argue that some people lost feelings for their partner because they lost the thrill in relationships but what about couples who are constantly together but their heart is else where? I’m no psychologist but I’m just stating what I believe in.

These innocent, wandering, souls of love, I believe, is the cause of destiny and fate. Maybe, just maybe, some couples are just not meant to be. And that, my dear acquaintances, is the cause of destiny and fate.

Secondly, let me talk about family wise. People come and go in our lives, especially of old age. Have you ever wondered why some people pass away of the ‘old age’ or 60 and some people at 90? Ignoring those who doesn’t care about their health, there are still a wide range of people who died at a wide range of age, and sometimes, it’s unexplainable. 

Let me put what I mean into an example. A few years ago, I had a perfectly healthy and normal grandfather. He eats well, sleeps well, exercises well, talks well and cleans well. However, he suddenly fell sick. No one could explain why was it so but he just fell sick. I’m not sure what the doctor diagnosed him with but it was a bit uncertain, to my knowledge. And then from then on, his health just went downhill, and gradually, he passed on.

I believe that it’s probably destiny’s call. Not god, but destiny. Honestly if destiny was a religion, I would believe in it. Maybe. 

Now I’m starting to question myself; who is this long text for?

I guess, it’s for myself, to understand myself, and for you guys, my acquaintance, whoever that is reading this, to know more about me.

From here on, I’m going to write my own destiny and fate, whether if it’s for myself or the people around me, and this is my story.