SELFISH || B.C. × L.FX

SEVEN.

B.C.

Once again, I was on VLIVE. This time though, I was filming another session of Chan's Room.

I smiled at the camera, as per usual, waving at the comments and stays who were watching.

"Hello everyone! Welcome back to chan's room! I hope you're all having a wonderful evening, morning, or noon!"

Lots of comments poured in, others greeting me, some asking for my usual hugs, some requesting for songs to play, and others explaining how their life was going.

"Channie! I'm having a shitty day"
"You make me feel better chris!"
"How do I deal with sadness?"
"I'm so stressed recently"
"How do I tell someone I love them?"

I took a deep breath, ready to answer most of the comments being flooded in.

"Well, everyone has not so good days in their life. And I hope you guys know it isn't your fault. You're just doing your best to get through, and it's life's fault for not treating you well despite your best efforts."

"I'm glad I make some of you feel better! You make me feel better!"

"I hope you know Sadness is part of life. You won't function as a human if you don't feel sadness in your life. It's hard, but we all learn to cope with it in diffirent ways. Just know that if you're sad, Come here. Go to me, Find me. You can cry on my shoulder."

"Me as well, i've been stressed a lot too. But you can always try and find time for yourself, try to de-stress the best you can. Watch a movie, eat your favourite food, maybe hang out with your favourite people!"

I finished, smiling and sighing. I felt bad lying to stays about stuff, because I couldn't even take action on my own advice. For some reason, I just can't pull myself out of this grief.

"For the last question, You can do it in various ways. You could give them a letter, maybe even give them chocolate to woo them maybe?"

I said, giving a little laugh at my own words

"personally, i'd like to be confessed to, face to face. I want to see if the person who confesses to me really loves me, because when I start something, I make sure it stays."

I smile at the camera, seeing love and praise in the comments. Although there were a ton that caught my eye that werent so nice.

"What a fucking nuisance"
"He's so fat nowadays."
"His songs were better in the past."
"CHRIS BANG'S SONGS ARE TRASH"
"He can't even rap. Binnie and sung are better"
"His singing is shit"
"He's fucking disgusting"
"Bang chan doesn't deserve to live."

Without me knowing, I felt a tear drop down to my cheek, eyes getting blurry with tears, a smile still on my face as I try to keep up the facade.

"That's all the time I have today, goodbye everyone!"

Maybe this'll be my last.