I wear a mask to hide my depression
I smile at strangers so that I can appear happy but really deep down inside I want to hate them
I want to be left alone yet I want all the attention
I want to find eternal happiness but I'm in denial about my depression
I walk around with my head down but when I see people I put my head up and pretend to be proud
I wear long sleeves to hide my self harm
I look in the mirror and I wanna break it
I go to school and I want to drop out
I go to work and I want to quit my job
I wear a mask to hide my depression
I smile at strangers so that I can appear happy but really deep down inside I want to hate them
When I walk down them street I want to run into traffic
When I walk by the bridge I want to jump off
When I sit in the car with my friends I secretly hope I die in a tragic accident but then I feel guilty
So when you tell me I'm the most positive person you know I feel like a fraud
Because I wear a mask to hide my depression
If only you knew everyday I contemplate suicide
My friends think I'm okay
My friends think I'm so fun
But deep down inside I have no hope for the future
Because I count all the suicide letters I've written and I count another year I grow older
But I wonder when I'll end it
I wear a mask to hide my depression
I wear a mask so I don't alarm my friends and family
But deep down inside I want to hate everyone the way I hate myself
I wear a mask to hide my depression
But when will I stop
My friends and family think I'm the happiest
But deep down inside I contemplate suicide
Deep down inside I want to hate everyone the way I hate myself
I wear a mask to hide my depression
But who sees the real me?
Who see's the tears I hold back
Who sees the shame I have whenever I feel the depression take over my whole body
I'm sorry friends
I'm sorry family
I'm really trying
But I hide my depression so well that the mask I wear is the only me you've ever known.
