He's a Poet

"Cafe"

As I prepared my things... thoughts running in my mind.

"I'm going to the cafe. I should prepare my self to look pretty and smart Jasper will love it."

"I can't stop smiling just thinking about you." Why I am so inlove with you? thoughts that keeps running in my cute brain.

"I'm in front of the cafe, wait i need to retouch little bit." I murmured to myself

When I enter at the cafe I saw my boyfriend socializing with his ex, she's Britanny. For me it's okay, it's not bad to socialize or even talk with your exes.

But on my thoughts and inside feelings "I get hurt but it is past, I should embrace it."

I sat on the table on the back, they are very happy, I saw Jasper smiling sweetly, I can't see that smile when he's with me.

They are sharing jokes and same vibes, they are laughing because of so much joy, but me? My heart is bleeding because of too much pain.

I stare to both of them less than an hour. But I noticed, Jasper didn't find me, he's not waiting for me.

"He forgot me because of Britanny, because of his ex girlfriend? I keep talking to my self.

I tried to call Jasper to get his attention, when I noticed his messages 5 hours ago.

"Oh! I forgot to read that message because I read his poem first."

I realized he sent 2 messages for me, but I only read one.

Jasper: "H'wag ka na pumunta sa Cafe, may importante akong gagawin."

I feel so weak reading that message and made me so reckless, my tears started to flow, my heart started to broke into pieces.

"What's more important than me? His ex? Britanny? What the hell!

I will read the poem again. I want to be happy even just a little. I want to fixed my broken heart. I want this poem to be the instrument for my broken heart to heal.

Lately, I read the poem from the top to the bottom, but I realized this poem can be a reverse poetry.

So this time I will read this poem from the bottom to the top.

Siya,
ang mahal ko at hindi
Ikaw, ikaw!
ang naging sagabal at gulo,
Pero siya ang aking mundo
Ikaw ang,
papansin sa gabi na alitaptap
At siya naman ang,
araw sa pagitan ng mga ulap.
Ikaw ang,
bagyo sa madilim na kaulapan.
Pero siya ang,
bituin sa malamig na kalangitan.
Ikaw ang,
dahilan kung ba't ako tumatamlay.
Siya ang,
nagbibigay liwanag sa aking buhay.
Ikaw ang,
dahilan upang ako'y sumablay.
Ang piliin at balikan siya ay,
isang matalinong pagpili.
Pero ang piliin ka ay,
isang pagkakamali.
Ang mahalin siya ay,
'di ako nagsisi.
Mahal kita,
salitang 'di ko masabi sa'yo.
Paalam hanggang sa muli.

Tears started to fall "why? does my love is not enough for him?

"I thought it was a romantic poem but the poem wasn't romantic and sweet at all,! it was tragic poem, with a tragic meaning."

I just left the cafe without interrupting them, "I thought we share the same feelings."

"It is just a one sided love."