i'm here.. (quackityxmalereader)

ch. 2 stream

     I arrived home shortly after leaving, begging to get today out of my head. As i walked upstairs to my room i heard my mom call me, "y/n are you going to want dinner?" "I'll eat later mom," i call back. I enter my room and sit at my desk.

     I turn on my computer and see my phone light up. "y/n, you still streaming tonight?" a text message from my group chat. It's me and two other friends i've known for since 8th grade. I get another message. "You better because i opened my schedule to play." Thankfully i was just about to start the stream.

     I hopped on a discord call with the two, meadow and totoro. "How we doing people?" I ask them. "Bruh just start the stream, i've been waiting to play among us for like an hour now." I hear totoro complain jokingly. I turn on the stream and see the viewers start to come in. It looks like it'll be a small stream only a few 6,000 viewers for now.

     The stream goes pretty well, it's a great way to take my mind off of everything. Meadow and i decide to make a little competition for the three of us. Whoever can get the other crewmates to vote the other two out wins 20 subs from both of the others. None of us have much money but hell why not.

     The competition started with meadow getting totoro voted off and coming for me next. She calls an emergency meeting. "Guys y/n vented in front of me." "Bull," i reply. She immediately drops her vote along with the words, "If it's not them, vote me next." That son of a- she couldn't care less about getting the impostor out. As i couldn't make up something to lie back with i accepted my defeat.

     Totoro unmuted their mic dying with laughter, "Y/N YOU'RE SO SLOWWW." "Complain all you want you still lost," you said back. "And i still won losers, go ahead and gift my subs," meadow chipped in. As i prepared my subs, meadow pops out, "y/n you don't have to sub anymore someone did it for you." "Nononono that does not count," totoro said. "Well it would be rude if i didn't let 'i simp for y/tn' count for you," she replied. "Oh yeah and they have a request as well," meadow added.

     "Well spill the beans woman," i said casually. "They wanna know when you think you'll get your marking and if you're dating anyone." I debated heavily in my head whether or not i was ready for people to know. Meadow and totoro knew since it first appeared and kept it a secret for as long and ive needed. Screw it i thought, literally nothing bad could happen. "Yeah no i'm not dating anyone right now buuuut i actually have my marking," i said nonchalantly. The chat exploded, questions about what it said, where it was, everything. "My markings on my wrist and it says... god what does it say," i haven't looked at it in so long i don't remember, i always hid it under a hoodie, a long sleeve, or bracelets.

     "It says 'i'm here' not that special i don't think," i told chat. i glanced at the time, 11 pm. "well on that note i feel like it's time to go to bed champs," i stated. i wasn't lying, i was tired. "awe party pooper," meadow replied. "you'll text us later right?" totoro asked. "it's not like i'll be doing much else," i said, "ok bye guys, bye chat, see y'all in a few days." i proceeded to end the stream and head downstairs.

     My mom was in the kitchen putting away her dishes. "Sounded like you were having a fun time up there," she played. "Yeah it was a fun stream," i replied. "Well if it makes you happy it makes me happy," she kissed my cheek, "I'm also not complaining about the money you get from it." "It's not that much," i say back. "Mi amor, any amount of money can help someone," she says before leaving to her room. I eat my dinner and go to my room shortly.

     I take a shower and get ready for bed just to lie down and think about my life. Everything's confusing. I'm just so mad that i get my marking first. Maybe i should try my therapist's advice. be human. I want to go on a date. Doesn't matter who just someone. Tomorrow i'm going to be human.