Sometimes it's hard acting like everything's okay.
To forget and forgive.
Or to forgive and forget.
How could someone forgive someone else. What is forgiveness?
Is justifying what you did wrong enough for me to forgive you?
Or is it when you know you're wrong and promise not to do it again?
Either way you did it.
Nobody forced you to do it.
You did it all by yourself.
Who says I have to forgive you?
The one you broke the most?
How come they were able to forgive you but I can't?
How come you hurt them more yet I'm the only one who hasn't forgiven you?
Maybe it's because when you do the horrible stuff you do to them it shows me who you are. Maybe it's because you have done it to me. Or maybe it's because i don't want to forgive you again and again only for you to repeat your actions again and again.
I'm waiting for you to mess up another time. So I know I'm right.
I always forgive you and move past it. But not this time.
Why should I forgive you when I know you're bound to mess up soon?
It's almost like a broken record...
except...
You're a record that was always broken. A record that they bought like that.
Unfixable.
They say it's in your blood.
But does that mean it's in my blood too?
I don't want it.
I don't want to act the way you act. I don't want to do the things you do. I don't have to, and I won't, that's the difference. It's not what's in your blood, it 's what you do with it.
Just because you went through the same things I'm going through doesn't mean you have to cause these things to me.
You say everything you do for me, for us, all of us. But when you sit there and compare me to others, whether it's based on looks, smarts, attitude, or hobbies, it hurts it shouldn't but it does.
She says I shouldn't care what you think. But I have to.
They say I have to.
So how do I forgive a horrible person?
Could I forgive a horrible person?
Even when others apologize for your own acts. You can't have others apologize for your own actions.
You couldn't,
how could you?
How could you do these things?
I don't understand how someone can just do it, showing emotions, no remorse, no pity, no nothing.
I wish I could say I forgive you. No matter what you do,
I can't,
I couldn't,
how could I?
That's the thing though, you can't forgive someone who's not sorry.
