Why Me?

07 My Andy

I was on bedrest for my entire pregnancy. Not doctor prescribed bedrest but mate ordered. It was infuriating. But it's all worth it seeing my mate hold our little boy.

"Carson Junior. The perfect name I think." He says holding our pup.

"I kinda like Andrew." I suggest with a smile.

"No." Carson states firmly. "His name is Carson."

"Carson Andrew?" I ask trying not to ruin our happy little family moment.

"Carson Andrew Rose... I can live with that." He concedes.

"Can I hold him?" I ask. My mate has had the baby since he came out.

"Yes, he is your responsibility the first few years. Of course you can hold him." He shrugs handing the little bundle of blankets over. "Make sure to breastfeed him. It makes the pup stronger. He needs to sleep on his back and don't put those loose blankets and stuffed animals in with him. Keep the baby monitor on you at all times." A speech I've heard a hundred times and know by heart.

"I know, Carson... hey where are you going?" I ask as he heads for the door.

"I've seen the boy and given you your orders. I'm going to work. Keep my boy alive, Katie." And with that he's gone. His boy... he called me Katie... what's going on?

My beautiful baby boy.

"Hi, Andy, I love you. I'm your momma... Daddy is busy now, because he's Alpha, but he loves you too." I tell the baby in my arms.

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"What is this!?" Carson roars as he looks at his dinner.

"Hot dogs and mac 'n' cheese. I didn't have a lot of time to cook. Little Carson had a check up and the shopping. Plus the little guy won't let me put him down. It took hours to get him to sleep. I'm so..." he cuts me off with a slap to the face.

"I don't want excuses, woman! Do you think this meal is fit for an Alpha? Do you think so little of me?" He asks grasping my hair harshly.

"I like mac 'n'..."

"Enough!" He screams punching me in the stomach, knocking the wind out of me, I fall to the floor. I hear my little pup crying from his crib, awoken by the noise. "Tend to my boy." He growls kicking me in the stomach as he leaves the house.

I slowly pull myself up and make my way upstairs to the nursery.

"Shhhh. Momma's here... my little Andy. It's okay. He's gone now." I whisper as I rock my boy.

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Three months. That's how long it's been since my boy was born. My mate has become hostile. Where before he would love on me when ever he lost his temper now he doesn't care. It's like now that he has a son he has no use for me.

"Hello, little mate." Carson greets me as he comes home. He hasn't called me that in so long.

"Hey, Carson." I respond handing him a plate.

"I was thinking tonight could be just us for a bit." He tells me. I can't help but smile. I miss his charm. Maybe he's just been stressed. I mean it's no excuse for beating me but at least he's better now. He is my mate I can't help but love him.

"I'd like that. I've missed you." I tell him.

"Missed me?" He asks.

"Yea... you've been different since the baby was born." I explain.

"Well now I want my mate so finish up your meal." He says like its nothing. He seems angry. His charm gone he is a man on a mission.

Once in done I get up to wash the dishes when hands wrap around me.

"Just a minute, Carson. I need to get these washed." I say as he tries to pull me away.

"Do it later. I've had a hard day and I want you." He hisses.

"Just a sec. I don't want it to stick." I argue wanting to at least rinse off the plates.

"Now, woman." He growls grabbing my hair and pulling me to our room.

He throws me on the bed harshly not caring for my comfort and does as he pleases. As soon as he's finished I try to hold him. This is the closest I've been to my mate in months. Now that he's got what he wanted maybe he will love me again.

"What are you doing, Katie." Carson asks removing my hands from his torso as he sits up.

"Getting some love from my mate. Trying to be close to you." I answer looking up at him. "I just want you to hold me." I feel tears start to come out and I look away.

"Listen, Katie, an Alpha's mate is good for two things. One: producing an heir. You've done that. Two: stress relief. You clinging to me like a love sick puppy defeats the purpose. I'm going back to work. Take care of my son and be ready for me tomorrow night. Know your place and fulfill your role and we won't have a problem." He tells me and my jaw drops.

"What happened to you?!" I yell at him. "You used to love me! Where's my charming Alpha? Where did he go?!"

"Love is for the weak!" He spits. "Would you have come to me and bore my son if I told you this from the start?...no?... didn't think so! I did what I had to do to get my heir! You are a tool for me to use! You will do what I say when I say! And you wanna know how I know you'll do it? Because if you don't I'll turn you rouge and you'll never see that squalling infant down the hall again. And if you run I'll lock you in the cells until you rot and once again the pup will never know his mother. I haven't changed, little mate. You are just now seeing who I am."

"Monster." I whisper.

"Now you're getting it." He laughs as he leaves me.

I immediately get up and run to my son. I pick up my sleeping baby and cuddle him to my chest.

"I love you, little one. I will do what ever I must to keep you. I pray I can save you from him. Be strong my little boy. Be strong my Andy." I cry as I hold him.