Alien Abduction

Not okay

Although my pregnancy was a major shock and freaked me out, it still doesn't seem real to this day that I have an alien being growing inside of me or is it a normal baby with some sort of extra terrestrial powers.
Urgh never thought been pregnant was such a fucking pain and expensive maybe when I give birth I'll just get it adopted or throw it to the sky or some shit.
Some days I feel like I can't breathe, I get nightmares about that experience I went through, I feel like I cannot look at people the same. Every day my belly gets bigger but is that the baby or the food I've not stopped consuming I feel like I cannot stop.
I eat because I'm unhappy and I'm unhappy because I eat like I need help!
It's been six months and I'm already the size of a horse, like at this point I have no life, I have no social life and don't have a job just got this old ass house on a farm.

Sometimes at night I lay awake stroking my belly and I swear at times I felt as if I could feel the baby's hand touch mine, it felt sickly but also sweet at the same time, it was hard to explain, how could anyone explain a strange feeling and also an excited feeling like there's so much joy of having a child and there's also bad sides to having one but it's a life.
I could never destroy a creature that had already formed.
Maybe I should see a doctor about my pregnancy but just the thought of white room and bright lights makes my skin crawl. If I could move again I would, I know that where ever I go they will come for me no matter what I do they will get me there's just no way of escape.
I decided to leave home for the day, go to a café for lunch and a lovely cup coffee.
I loved cafe's so much as you open the door it's full of warmth and welcome, the fresh aroma of coffee and fresh food being cooked it felt so relaxing.
As I sat in the café with my bacon sandwich and my hot drink I felt a strange presence almost a familiar feeling.

"Hey Linda.. How are you?" my body froze for a moment, my mind going crazy my hairs on the back of my neck froze and goosebumps started forming, I shivered from the breeze of the café door as it closed,  I looked up to see a man, strong features, deep dark green eyes, a chiselled face and beautiful lips only a woman could dream of, his smile was crooked but soft and gentle looking. I knew who he was but my brain were running marathons.
"F.. F.. Felix?" it was one my former friends from school we hadn't seen each other in years.

"Ahh you still remember me then, been a long time hasn't it, I see you've been having allot of fun!" Felix giggles nervously and rubs the back of his fine silky this black hair he then puts his hand in his pocket and jingled his pocket.
"Uh.. Oh yeah this well I had partner who left for the army and unfortunately an accident happened and he didn't make it back home."
"Sorry to hear that Linny." I lied about having a boyfriend because I didn't want to scare him away it felt so good to see an old friend again, I missed his awkwardness and sweet nicknames for me I actually felt so relaxed and soothed right now best feeling I've had in a long time.

"Yes it's pretty sad but the new life inside of me will always remind me of him, aside from that Felix I've been okay, how about yourself?"
Felix finally sat down and ordered another round of coffee we spoke about all the old days and amazing memories that we had shared and honestly it felt great.
As time passes he looked his watch and apologises to me, he says he had an appointment to get to as he's jist moved here and had a job working at the local bank.
I smiled and told him that I were proud of him and hope to see him again soon.
We mutually agreed and we both parted out the café together he hugged me so gently and kissed my cheek, I blushed and turned away then started to walk home.
My body filled with excitement, I couldn't stop thinking about him, his dark eyes and licious hair I just wanted to play with it.
I wanted to be with him and re connect, my smile was so big I looked as crazy as the Cheshire cat.

When I got home I dropped my bag and threw my coat onto the sofa and then sat down, it felt good to be home but then I remembered I am now alone again and usually this didn't bother me. Since seeing Felix again it triggered something inside me almost like I actually had a heart. What was wrong with me. I really just don't think I am okay, too many emotions going on and the events that have took place this last 6 months jesus I'm surprised I've not just ran into the motorway or some shit.. Hmm MENTAL ILLNESS INNIT!