Rejected Acceptance

Chapter 1

Pha's pov:

CRASH!!

I felt like my whole world stopped.

I was frozen on the spot.

I could hear screaming and shouting but it wasn't registering in my head.

I could only see the scene infront of me.

My love. My beloved. The love of my life.

Laying on that car bleeding to death.

"-ha! PHANA KONGTHANIN!!" Beam slapped me hard across my face.

I looked at him.

"Snap out of it! We need to help him now!" He yelled.

With that i immediately ran to the car and climbed on to it.

His eyes were closed and his chest wasn't moving.

I quickly checked for a pulse, breathing or heartbeat. Even if it's barely there. Anything which would tell me there's hope.

But it seems that the world was against me.

I couldn't feel anything.

And from the way his head was bleeding, by the time paramedics get here, it will be far too late to even try reviving him.

Tears streamed down my face.

"No no no no. Please no. Please." I cupped his cheeks which were getting colder and colder.

"Pha?" I heard Lam's shaky voice.

I bit my lips and clutched onto Forth's shirt tightly.

"It-it's too l-late....." I cried.

I bent down and buried my face in his neck.

I cried at the top of my lungs not caring who was watching.

I don't know when they took him away.

I don't even remember going back to our apartment.

Yeah. Forth and i moved in together after graduation.

Everything seemed meaningless now.

I didn't care anymore.

The one person i wanted to stay beside for the rest of my life is no longer here.

He's dead.

"Pha.... Please drink something atleast..." Beam looked at me with extreme worry.

I looked around and saw Kit with the same expression.

But i didn't answer.

"In the end i couldn't protect him.... I couldn't make him happy...." I muttered.

"No it's not like that." Beam knelt infront of me.

"Then why?! Why did he have to die?! If i had been able to protect him he wouldn't have killed himself! If i had been able to make him happy he would be with me right now!" I yelled.

Tears streamed down my face again.

Beam and Kit sat on either side of me and wrapped their arms around me tightly.

"How did i not see it? How did i not notice that it was getting to that point?" I cried.

We stayed like that for a long time.

Me crying in their arms.

The tears wouldn't stop.

After a while the door opened and Park came in with an envelope in his hand.