Forbidden Love - HawksxDabi

Chapter 8

     Hawks P.O.V.

     I shift around in the bed grabbing onto something. It wasn't the warmth that held me last night. It's soft and chilly. Unlike the comforting heat that Touya gave off. He was like my own personal heater.

     I slowly open my heavy eyelids, squinting at the blinding sun peering through the curtains. Once getting used to it, I look towards the now empty spot where Touya once lay.

     I lazily sit up, bringing my balled fists up to my eyes to wipe the tiredness away. Yawning, I stand up and stretch everything. My stiff wings, sore arms and legs, then let a loud crack emit from my back.

     'Damn.. I needed that.'

     I drag my feet out of my bedroom to the kitchen where I presumed Touya was.

     "Touya?"

     I enter the kitchen and see him by the counter. His hands gripping the edge, his knuckles turning white. He was staring down at something in the sink.

     "Touya? Are you ok? What are you looking at" I say to him with a yawn.

     He slowly turns his head to face me. Silent tears streaming down his face. His face twisted into one of guilt, sadness, and a hint of anger.

     I look at his face with confusion and worry wondering what he could be so upset about.

     I walk towards him, cautiously peering into the sink. What I saw made my stomach twist and caused the air to get caught in my throat.

     There, in the sink, sat the dried bloody knife that I used to hurt myself only a few days ago.

     I clutch my forearm, holding it close to my chest. Looking away from the knife down to the now, very interesting, tile floor of the kitchen. Taking a few steps away from Touya trying desperately not to cry.

     "Keigo.."

     With the sound of my first name escape past his lips, I burst into tears. Bringing my hands up to my face, crying into them.

     Hearing a shuffle, I feel two strong yet safe arms envelop me in a tight hug.

     "I-I'm sor-ry. I w-was so a-angry an-and..."I trail off towards the end. Sobbing so hard that I could barely form a full sentence.

     "Keigo. Don't apologize. I'm not angry. Just... just sad I wasn't here to comfort you."

     I look up at him, tears steadily streaming down both of our cheeks. His crystal blue eyes were full of hurt and sadness. I just wanted to comfort him at the moment. To take away all the hurt from his eyes.

     But all that hurt...was my fault. I caused him that pain. My ignorant and stupid decision caused him pain. My uselessness and stubbornness caused him to feel pain. When all I wanted was for me to feel pain.

     "Y-you pr-promise your n-not mad?"

     He looked down at me and gave a small apologetic smile.

     "Of course not Bird Brain. Why would I be mad at you?"

     Both of our tears were now cut down to small sniffles. Him still holding my waist and me clutching the front of his shirt.

     "I... I don't know. You just seem so hurt and I hurt you it was my fault that you are hurting and I caused you pain and I didn't mean to and I was only trying to hurt myself not others, especially you an-

     I was cut off my a pair of scarred, yet soft lips on my own. My eyes widened a bit before I realized what was going on.

     Closing my eyes, I leaned into the kiss. My arms snaking up and around his neck. The kiss was full of love and sweetness. It was short lived though.