Satisfied

One shot or not?

Tsukishima: Alright! Alright! Let's give it up to the Man of Honor! SHOYO HINATAAA!

Hinata's Pov

As I walked onto the stage, I can hear them cheering loudly for my name "I have to make a speech." Shoyo thought as he received the champagne glass from Tsukishima and smiled brightly at the crowd.

A toast to the groom! To the Bride! From your Brother Shoyo, who is always by your side, to your union, and the hope that you provide. May you always be satisfied.
—Rewind—

I remember that night I regret that night for the rest of my days, I remember those other boys tripping over themselves to win our praise. However, Tobio I'll never forget the first time I saw your face. I have never been the same Intelligent eyes with a hunger pang frame and when you said Hi, I forgot my dang name. It set my heart aflame, every part was aflame.
This is not a game!

"You strike me as a man who has never been satisfied," a young man suddenly approached me.
"I'm sure I don't know what you mean. You forget yourself." I said and stared at the young man curiously the audacity of this man to assume my situation.
"You're like me, I'm never satisfied," he said confidently
"Is that right?" I asked with my tone slowly rising to intimidate him.
"I have never been satisfied," he shyly said as he rubs the back of his head.

"My name is Shoyo Hinata from the concrete." I introduced myself gracefully.
"Tobio Kageyama"
"Where's your family from?" I ask
"Unimportant, there are a million things I haven't done, just you wait." He playfully said and laughed.

Time passed by after our first encounter, we became friends. At first, it was only because of curiosity, his eyes would shine bright whenever he talks about his dreams, and I admire him for being so pure and determined about his ideals in life. We eventually became something, more than friends; I remember how I sneaked out from our house to meet him in the park and he confessed his attraction to me but we decided to keep it hidden and didn't put any label into our relationship.

"Shoyo? wait for me, I want to prove myself before telling the world you belong to me." He told me sincerely.
"Don't worry, I'll wait for you Tobio," I said as I caressed his cheeks and smiled adoringly at him.

We kept our relationship lowkey, and I frequently sneak out to have dates with him, in short I really did wait for him. Then one night, he told me he was ready to tell everyone about our relationship, I never felt so much happiness before.

We were invited to a party that was hosted by another noble, Tsukishima Kei. I was too excited to spend time with Tobio and finally introduce him to everyone that is why I brought my brothers with me. I was constantly checking out the crowd, eagerly looking for my lover. Unable to contain the happiness I felt, I confessed to Tadashi and Noya about having a lover and that I'm finally introducing him to them, both guys were thrilled at my sudden news and teased me nonstop. To pass the time, I was discussing to Tadashi about a new business that I was planning to open and realized that my brother was not listening to me. So, I glanced at him, prepared to scold him about how rude it was to ignore people.
"Tadashi! you idiot listen—" But instead my words were stuck, I was intrigued by my brother's face who was blushing and eyes filled with love. I was curious who was the lucky man who made my angelic brother to that state but was distracted when I saw Tobio walked towards us smiling.

"Shoyo!" he yells cheerfully
I stared at him lovingly and walked towards him and I was taking a deep breath, ready to introduce him to my brothers
Noya and Tadashi this is Tobio my— "FRIEND! I'm his friend, we met at the capital" Tobio stated enthusiastically
I stared at him incredulously as he cut off my words, and felt my world crumble as I saw Tobio's eyes filled with love at first sight and adoration towards my Tadashi.

"No, No, No!! What the fuck is happening. Kageyama what are you doing?" I was screaming out of  my mind, my chest was starting to hurt I- I felt like I can't fucking breathe and I just want to puke at that moment. But I composed myself and swallowed all the pain for the moment.

"That's right! This is my good friend Tobio Kageyama." I introduced him.
"I-My name is Tadashi! Tadashi Hinata." My brother said nervously.
"Hinata?" Tobio asked.
"My brother," I told him
"It has been a pleasure meeting someone as beautiful as you Tadashi," Tobio stated as he kissed my brother's hand.

"I'll leave you to it!" I said loudly and walked away with a fake smile plastered on my face and tears that are threatening to fall. I felt so horrible as I witness kageyama kissing my brother's hand.

What if I told my brother he was my boyfriend? But I know my brother like I know my own mind you will never find anyone as trusting or as kind If I tell him that he's my lover, he'd be silently resigned. Tobio would still be mine and Tadashi would say he's fine but he'd be lying. But when I fantasize it's Tobio's eyes and smile, as I romanticized what might have been if I hadn't sized him up so quickly; At least my dear Tadashi is happy.
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"Sho, Sho are you okay?" Tadashi asked
I snapped out of my thoughts and I realized I froze on the stage, and the whole crowd was looking at me.

"TO THE GROOM! TO THE BRIDE! FROM YOUR BROTHER, WHO IS ALWAYS BY YOUR SIDE! TO YOUR UNION AND THE HOPE THAT YOU PROVIDE! May you always be satisfied." I hugged them and congratulated them and ran outside as soon as they weren't looking.

"Why was he not satisfied with me? Am I not enough? Why did he take back all the things he said? He broke all his fucking promises! Why can't he be satisfied with me?" I sobbed all my heart out

"Ohhhhh Sho, you are enough. If only you spared me a glance because you're more than enough for me Sho. I was satisfied seeing you smile even if I was not the reason, I was satisfied to see you in love, even if it was another person. I'm here sunshine. Use me Sho, use me to heal until you are satisfied"

"Kei?" I hugged him and continued to cry all the pain that I felt.