Hold On 'Til May - Fuenciado

Chapter Two

[Vic]

hey kel u up?

I needed someone to talk to, and the boys just wouldn’t do. I needed someone who would understand what I was feeling, rather than just try to understand. I knew for sure one person who would have gone through similar feelings… Kellin Quinn. Sleeping With Sirens had become pretty good friends with Pierce the Veil, and Kellin and I hit it off. The singer of the band also happened to be bisexual, which made him a good candidate to talk to when it comes to dealing with boys. I felt my phone vibrate, and then a second time, after reading the first message.

now I am, whats going on? do you need to talk?

well if u wanna talk im here

When you text someone this early in the morning, I guess it’s kind of obvious you want to talk. I couldn’t take Jaime’s offer to talk though… not yet at least. Maybe I should just put it out there and tell him though? I decided to give the thinking a break and eat; I could talk to Kellin in a little while.

can i call u in maybe 15?

15 minutes would give me time to eat, and head off for a walk, since it would have to be a private conversation with Kellin. I quickly finished off my waffle, then grabbed another one, scarfing it down.

“Wow, someone’s hungry!” Jaime looked at me and laughed, as I stood up to wash my hands.

“Yeah!” I laughed, “Hey guys, I need some fresh air. I’m going for a walk.” No one would come at 2:30 in the morning, right? Wrong.

“I’ll come with you!” Jaime smiled, and I couldn’t help a face of worry. “… or not if you do-" 

“Oh yeah, sure man!” I couldn’t let Jaime think he’d done something wrong, after all he was my best friend… though I wish he was more. I looked at the boy’s face and drank in those gorgeous brown eyes, oh god and those lips, how I’d kill to kiss – oh shit, I’m staring. I smiled awkwardly, hoping that Jaime didn’t notice, spun around and grabbed a flashlight. I opened the door, slipped on my shoes, then stepped outside, waiting for Jaime. Jaime and I walked for a couple of minutes aimlessly, then my phone began to vibrate. “I gotta get this Jaime,” I pushed the talk button on my phone and said ‘hey’.

The voice on the other end was Kellin of course. “What’s going on, what d – is this about you and Jaime?” he whispered the last part so that his band mates wouldn’t hear.

“Yeah, I’ve kinda been…” I trailed off. “Hey, can we talk later?” I didn’t want Jaime to hear our conversation, nor did I want to leave him alone. “I’m out on a walk with Jaime right now…” 

“At 2 am?” Kellin questioned.

“Yeah, we had midnight wa-”

“waffles, yeah, I know.” Seems like everyone knows about our love of waffles. “Anyways, whatever your reasoning for being out this early, you should tell him!” he told me in a firm voice. “Trust me, the worst that could come is rejection…” I made a worried face at that. I didn’t like the thought of rejection, especially from Jaime. But, I guess I’ll never know if I don’t try…

[Jaime]

“Yeah, I’ve kinda been…” my best friend’s voice trailed off as I wondered what was up with him. I’ll ask him after he’s done on the phone. “Hey, can we talk later? I’m out on a walk with Jaime right now…” To me, it sounded like he didn’t want me here… and earlier it looked that way too. Did I do something wrong?

The voice on the other end was muffled, but it reminded me of Kellin Quinn’s. Why would Vic be talking to him at this time of night? Not that it really mattered to me who Vic talked to. “Yeah, we had midnight wa-” I’m guessing whomever Vic was talking to cut him off because he just stopped talking. Vic made a face at something the other person said, but then quickly smiled again. “Bye! Thanks man, I might…” He might what?

“Who was that?” I asked out of curiosity. Vic just smiled and waved it off, and we continued to walk. We came to a bench, and Vic decided to sit down. I sat down next to him, and he turned to look at me. “You do realize how creepy we look right now,” I laughed. “Right?”

“Jaime,” Vic used a serious tone. “I need to talk to you about something.”

I smiled and replied “You can talk to me about anything!” Vic looked at me, his eyes filled with sadness and worry.

“Jaime… I – I…” I pulled Vic in for a hug, he looked like he was about to cry.

“Go ahead Vic,” I urged him on with my arms wrapped around him.

“Jaime, I love you…” I smiled and returned the words.

“I love you too Vic, now just tell me what’s going on,” he looked at me and let out a small sigh.

“Jaime, you’re my best friend… and I love you… so much. Jaime, you’re my everything,” that was a bit weird, even coming from my best friend, but I just let it slide. “No matter what, will you stay by me?” I nodded my head. Why would he ever think I wouldn’t? “Jaime… you make me so happy, and I don’t know what I’d do without you. Seriously, you are my world… you’re more than just my best friend to me Jaime… I guess, what I’m trying to say is that… I’m in love with you Jaime.” I was shocked, and I must have looked shocked as well, because Vic looked kinda sad. I knew he was gay, but how long had he had feelings for me? I was straight, I knew that.

“Vic…”

“Jaime… I’m sorry…” Vic got up and started to walk the opposite direction of the bus.

“Vic,” I grabbed his wrist and pulled him in for a hug, “this doesn’t change the fact you’re my best friend Vic, but I’m straight.” Vic looked ready to cry after I said that. I looked into his eyes, and Vic seemed to lean a little closer to me…