A certain romance

The emptiness

You know that feeling.
When you feel lonely, but you're not alone.
You are beyond miserable.
You can not cry.
You just stare into space.
That piercing pain in the pit of your stomach.
It's called emptiness
And oh boy I am the embodiment of
Emptiness.
{ 3:00 AM }
Silence.
Nothing but me left to deal with my inner demons.
You could tell me I'm insane, but the truth is... I know.
"Oh god, no please no, no not again!" I shrieked doubled over in pain clutching my stomach with one hand and pulling my hair with the other.
I lay in the corner on the floor of my room. The pounding in my head. The ringing. It came back.
{ 3:45 AM }
I have that piercing feeling in my stomach. Like I'm being stabbed. "The emptiness."
And then it's gone.
Like nothing happened.
All that can be heard now is my muffled breathing and my feet shuffling back to my bed against the cold floor.
{ 7:00 AM }
I am woken up by my alarm. I lazily got off my bed put on my black skinny jeans and slid on my black converse. Threw on a red and black flannel and my misfits jacket. Did my makeup as usual, brushed my messy black hair, put on my backpack, waved bye to my mum and skateboarded to school.
{ 8:00 AM }
I walk straight to my locker. I try to make my self go unnoticed. It's not that I'm scared of people... Well actually I am, but anyway I just am not looking my best today. Disheveled hair, bags under my eyes, and my face flushed of all colour. I made my way to first period, math... I hate math and everyone in that class.
As I walked through the door I found my usual seat in the back of the room and took out my notebook and pens to draw. I never pay attention in class and no one notices. I'm kind of invisible I guess.
{ 12:00 PM }
Eating lunch.. alone as usual.
I like being alone..
But sometimes when I'm alone... "the emptiness" comes.
Only someti- "NO NOT NOW PLEASE." I Screamed in agony
Earning a few stares from surrounding peers... actually not a few. a lot.
The ringing, the stabbing pain, "the emptiness." It's back.
I struggled to stand (still being stared at) and ran. ran far. Ran to the park. I just needed to get far away. Somewhere to calm down. Eventually the stabbing pain got the best of me. I was getting weaker. I collapsed, literally collapsed and hit my head... blacked out.