Truly, Madly, Deeply

Liam's POV

I didn’t dare move. Nothing in the entire world could make me move at this perfect moment in time. Not this morning, not after last night. I dare to look over to my left, and you are there. At least, I hope you are really there. I have had this dream so many times, I can’t quite discern whether this is in my dreams or reality. Maybe I am making all this up in my head. Maybe all those memories together were just figments of my imagination. It wouldn’t be the first time that I made up a perfect world with just you and me.

Am I asleep, am I awake, or somewhere in between?

I can’t believe that you are here and lying next to me,

Or did I dream that we were perfectly entwined?

Like branches on a tree, or twigs caught on a vine?

I silently and slowly move my hand to touch your head, carefully not to wake you up, just in case you are actually with me right now, and as I brush your hair from your face, I sign in utter perfection. You are next to me. Last night was real. I can feel you touching me with every inch of my body. My skin tingles all the way from the entwining of our ankles to your head resting gently on my rising and falling chest, lulling you to stay asleep. The way your knee is lying on top of my calf, your arm wraps around my stomach with your fist almost gripping my sheets, tangled around the both of us. I can feel every breath you take against my bare chest and I shudder with my feelings of desire and love. Your hair tickles my chin, and it reminds me of the early days, the days before this beautiful moment.

Like all those days and weeks and months I tried to steal a kiss.

And all those sleepless nights and daydreams where I pictured this.

I’m just the underdog who finally got the girl,

And I am not ashamed to tell it to the world.

My dreams have been infiltrated by you since the moment you walked into the wrong conference room. Your blush when you realized who we were, it was the most adorable color on your cheeks, and it only grew a darker red when the rest of the boys started their joking. I knew in that moment that I would stop at nothing to have you, whether as a friend or as my dream come true. I can’t believe that you actually gave me the time of day! I was a complete fool those first few weeks, but you still answered my many calls and texts. Every moment together I contemplated telling you exactly what I wanted, needed from you. I wanted to kiss you every second, and hold you forever. And to think that after all this time, I finally have you, I am finally holding you. You are mine in this moment, right now. To think that I, the serious, unfunny one could win the girl, the most amazing girl, above all the other guys. I want to tell the world that you are mine and I am yours, all the men can keep on dreaming because they can’t have you. I can’t wait to tell the guys.

Should I put coffee and granola on a tray in bed,

And wake you up with all the words that I still haven’t said?

And tender touches, just to show you how I feel,

Or should I act all cool, like it was no big deal?

The guys, will they barge in this morning, like all the others, expecting breakfast? What if they walk in on us? I don’t want them to see us like this. Not that I am ashamed, I would be an idiot to ever be ashamed of you. I just don’t want to share this with anyone. This one perfect moment in time is mine, ours. What if you are hungry when you wake up? It wouldn’t be long until you woke up on your own, you never were one to sleep in. Should I let you sleep and wake up on your own or should I wake you up? I want to watch you sleep, you are so peaceful and gentle, but I want to tell you everything. I want to tell you that you have captured my heart in your soft and caring hands, that your eyes send chills down my spine with their sparkling depths, that I can never love anyone in this world as much as I love you. I want to wake you with a tender kiss on your lips, a sweet caress on your hip, an intimate nudge of our noses, all those silly acts of love that I have dreamed of with you. What am I thinking? You would freak out if I did any of that, wouldn’t you? Should I act like nothing happened, like this was just an accident? I don’t want to, I never want to forget this, to go back to the way things used to be. I want to keep you.

Wish I could freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this.

I’ll put this day back on replay and keep reliving it.

‘Cause here’s the tragic truth if you don’t feel the same,

My heart would fall apart if someone said your name.

I can’t ruin this moment, I never want this to end. My life would be a utopia if I could live in this moment forever. I wouldn’t change anything, just keep you and I, tangled and touching in this warm, soft bed, only warm and soft because of your presence. I am terrified that when you wake, you will realize the mistake you made. You aren’t meant to be with me, you aren’t supposed to be in this bed right now. You are worth so much more than boring “Daddy Direction.” You won’t ever feel what I feel for you, and that is okay. I start to feel pain in my chest at the thought of you leaving, now that I finally have you. I have to let you go though, you deserve more, a better man. Although, my heart will break with every step you take away from me, every minute that I can’t hold you, care for you.

I hope I’m not a casualty,

Hope you won’t get up and leave.

Might not mean that much to you,

But to me it’s everything, everything.

I feel myself sink deeper into my sadness, but then you snuggle your head closer into my chest, inhaling and exhaling as though you need to reassure yourself that I was still here. My hopes rise, and I wish that you won’t leave me behind, that you won’t wake up and leave this bed hard and cold. I may not be much to you, by you are everything to me. Every glance, every word, every touch, the only reason in my life now. Please don’t leave me alone.

Truly, madly, deeply, I am,

Foolishly, completely falling,

And somehow you kicked all my walls in.

So baby, say you’ll always keep me,

Truly, madly, crazy deeply in love (in love) with you (with you),

In love (in love) with you (with you)

In love (in love) with you (with you)

With you, oh!

Your eyelids flutter open, and you focus your eyes on mine, and my entire body relaxes when your face erupts into your blissful, lazy smile. I know that in that moment you are staying, that you feel the same, that you will keep me. You have changed my entire life, you are my entire life, and although you broke down everything that I once knew, I know that you will help me learn new, better things. Foolishly, I wrap my fingers around yours and dive into a world full of adventure and times of trouble, especially with my hectic life, but I can’t help it. I am truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you.