WILL YOU STAY? {c.t.h}

prologue

[ l o w e r c a s e i n t e n d e d ]

she ran through the door without looking back, back to his father who was there trying to catch her. she can't even feel her own hands. "hey, becca!" she heard his voice, a voice whom she used to admire but despise now. she got the car keys and headed to the car just there at the front of their old house that cold late night. "get out of the damn car!" his voice sounds terrifying it reached under her skin.

she started the engine. she wasn't allowed to drive a car yet, she didn't even had a license but if you were in this situation, would you still even give a damn? she never even looked at him. she began to cry, she cried without any hesitation. what should she do now? where will I go? she has those questions inside her head. she drove away from him.

she have nowhere to go but to him, the love of her life, her savior. she doesn't know what else to do. she drove for minutes to his house. it's cold in the middle of november and she's not wearing a coat.

she grabbed her phone from the right pocket calling him. "becca, why?" he sounds like he was disturbed from his deep sleep. "can you come outside? i'm right here" she said trying to sound like she really was okay.

"just wait" he said as he hangs up. what else could she do? after all the things that has made her life like living in hell, she's going to be stupid and lost and so in a mess. what choices does she have? nothing but to face the fact that her life is so fucked up.

he was there, wearing his blue coat coming in her way. "why are you outside at the middle of the night?" he asked. she kept silent. "what is it? baby, you can tell me. i hate seeing you cry, you know that. " he said again, hurt visible in his eyes. she can't even look straight to his eyes because she was so disgusted with herself. she hated her.

"i'm breaking up with you" she said sounding brave but tears fell from her eyes as she look straight to him. he was surprised but immediately changed his expression. "is this a midnight joke?" he laughed nervously as he removed his blue coat from his body. "wear this, you're so cold."

"please! please don't make it harder for me to leave you. i'm sorry, baby. i had to do this. i hope you will forgive me. i love you, okay? don't ever forget that. someday.. someday you will know why i broke up with you." she started to walk away from him, although it hurts so much. her everything. he was gone.

it hurts leaving him clueless. she would never forgive herself for hurting him. they've been together for 3 years. at an early age, they've proved anyone about their assumed love. if she chose to be selfish and to not let him go, he'll suffer more. maybe this is meant to happen.

crying and screaming her name is what she only heard before she locked herself inside the car. she couldn't even drive, she just sat there whilst crying. she looked one last time at him. one last time, i think she will do this.

she got off her car and ran up to him. hugging and kissing him as long as she could, leaving him breathless. they connected foreheads and she smiled, "i love you but I need to say goodbye. we're too young and we're in love. you'll find another one better than me. i promise you."

"no. there's so many pretty girls out there but you're my only one. i will wait for you, becca. i love you. i'm letting you go now because i wanted you to be happy. i will stay. " she knew that will be the last conversation they will have. it was short because she almost had no time left but that really means so much to her. she needed to stay away from him so she can easily move on.

she drove fast having no idea where to go. her eyes began to blur because of the tears falling from her eyes and also the pain she felt.

'i'm so dirty. i hate myself. no one deserves me. no one, no one. maybe it would be a lot easier if i just killed myself but no. i've done enough mistakes and caused a lot of pain to him. i'll stay but I will not go back there.'

her phone was ringing and she needed to answer it. without hesitating, she answered it not knowing who is the caller. "darling, you need to go home. we're not even done. i will find you. there's no escape. go home or i'll kill your stupid boyfriend! "

her hands began to shake and breaths hitched. his words kept playing and repeating to her head. she didn't realize that her phone dropped so she aimlessly grabbed it. as she sees the road once again...

a cliff. right now she just don't care. she's going to die. she doesn't care.

"please don't hurt him." she cried. it was no use to escape from this trap anymore.

"BECCA! ANSWER ME, FUCK! I'M OUTSIDE THE BASTARD'S HOUSE. COME BACK IF YOU WANT TO SEE HIM AGAIN. " startled, she just looked at the screen and sobbed. as her car falls slowly, she closed her eyes and hoped that this was all a sick joke but also wished that he is okay. he's her first priority.

"i hope you'd be proud of me now, daddy. wished come true. "

then after that? she saw nothing, felt nothing.