I cry real tears, as my life is so fucked up. I blame myself for three things:
1. My mom is in jail with a one hundred dollar bail.
2. I can't go to my aunt's house anymore.
3. My beautiful ex girlfriend broke up with my worthless ass.
i cutted myself over these things swirling in my head. I'm so lonely. I don't know what to fucking do, at all! The pain is such a sudden rush for me everyday. I can't fight the horrifying voices in my head. I think they are winning.
Like a war......
It's hard thinking about my mom being in jail even though i was not living with her in the first place, but still. Also, with the pain of my ex....damn she was so beautiful. I look at other girls, beautiful and pretty, and my friends that are girls.....all pretty. I'm not turning bie or gay... just saying in general about the girls. They don't want me, no more than a friend.....no pretty, and beautiful girls want me...none of them....
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