LOST AND FOUND

There are moments when I feel like giving up.
I was recovering but my situations made it worse.
How will I survive for the rest of my life
When all I can think is that my life is a curse.
I'm trying to "get over it"
I'm trying to "move on"
I'm trying to "let it go"
And I'm trying to hold on.
I'm just a teen
And these are the thoughts in my head
I do not like crying and being sad
"You are an attention seeker", is all that will be said.
Why can't I be happy with myself?
Why can't I feel whole?
Why do I need people around?
Why do I not have a goal?
There is more in life, yes I believe that
There is a lot more to achieve
These cannot be my toughest years
That is hard to believe.
But when I feel so empty how do you expect me to thrive?
I feel so lonely in a crowd.
It is arduous to stay alive.
I feel like no one wants to talk to me
Maybe I am letting my assumptions fly
Sitting in a dark corner overthinking,
As the days go by.
"This is just life" I have heard;
That is true for sure
But learning to be undeterred,
Is my only cure.
I am still trying and always will,
Nobody there to stop me;
I want to be happy and fulfilled,
Never sorry.