"After the things I lived, I didn't want to fall in love again. But you made me believe in what I thought got lost in this dark and cold world." - Taehyung.
Continuation of "Calling Paradise."
Started: October 01, 2020.
Completed: September 11, 2021...
Last night was a rough moment for Jungkook and me. We talked about our feelings, and even though I know he was talking about me, I didn't say anything. Yet, the excitement of knowing where his heart is at wasn't easy to hide when we began to laugh about silly things we were saying. I wanted to hug Jungkook, kiss him all over his face, and tell him that I feel the same way he does; however, I didn't make any of that since I began to wonder if I was the one inside his heart. Even though I have a slight idea that I'm the one he loves, I can't deny that I also believe that Jungkook might have feelings for someone else.
Last night, when Jungkook was sleeping, I talked with Jimin through the phone. Of course, he was at Jodie's place, so I had the chance to speak with both of them. I asked them for some advice; after all, I don't know how to express my feelings correctly. Jimin told me to keep things slow, but Jodie was against that and said that I should mention it sooner than later. Jodie believes that Jungkook also wanted to tell me something about his feelings, but he never does since we have the same problem of not knowing what to say in those circumstances. I trusted my sister, and Jimin, in the end, agreed with her, so I don't know when, but I'll find the moment to ask Jungkook for a chance between us.
My feelings for him started to bloom a few months after I learned to live with the shadow of Jodie's relationship with Jimin. At first, it wasn't easy, but Jungkook helped me a lot; he cared about me like no one else, and he never left my side. Namjoon-hyung and Hobi-hyung also know about my feelings, and I can tell that Jin-hyung suspects it. As far as I know, I act normal around Jungkook, but I tend to worry a lot if he isn't close to me. At some point, I felt possessive, and the members made fun of it for weeks.
*Current time – Jungkook's Apartment*
I'm caressing Jungkook's hair while watching him deep in his sleep. The break we are having is about to end in a few weeks, so I won't see Jungkook like this after a while, which makes me want to admire this moment even more. I kissed his cheek while smiling at him.
Jungkook's hair is getting longer.
I chuckled slightly at the thought of seeing a possible bun on my friend's head. He looks so cute when I see Jungkook with his manly bun.
-You are so cute when you sleep, but when you are a reckless kid, I only want to lock you somewhere you're safe. – I chuckled before snuggling against Jungkook. -Wake up. I want to hear your voice. – I whispered while holding him tightly.
Jungkook groaned before opening his arms to me. I just smiled before leaning forward and then rested my head on his chest. I stared at his lips for some seconds, I could feel that my impulses wanted me to kiss Jungkook, but I was hesitating because I don't want to take advantage of the sleepy potato.
-You tease me even in your sleep. – I smiled while caressing Jungkook's lips.
I got lost in the moment, which aroused me to pull Jungkook from his shirt; it was close enough to feel his lips on mine. I didn't stop and began to kiss Jungkook deeply. I felt the freshness of the moment, my heart fluttering at the sensation. It made me addicted, so I kept on kissing him while holding onto him.
-Tae, Taehyung. – Jungkook said sleepily.
-No, no, let me do it. – I murmured as I got on top of Jungkook and kept on kissing him.
Jungkook opened his eyes and started to stroke my hair while kissing me back.
-Tae, get off. It's too early. – Jungkook complained as I began to peck his lips.
I chuckled before getting off, and then I laid next to him again. Jungkook leaned closer and kissed me once again and then held me tightly.
-Kookie, it's not a dream. – I whispered, wanting to laugh so badly.
-What? – Jungkook opened his eyes and stared back at me. He flinched when he noticed that everything that happened was real. -Hyung?! I, I'm so sorry! – He embarrassedly said while bowing.
I laughed at Jungkook before pulling him closer, kissing him softly this time. Jungkook got surprised at first but didn't wait long to give me the same affection back.
He pulled away, looking at me, confused. -Yah! Say something! – I chuckled while hitting Jungkook's side.
-What do you want me to say? "Oh, shit, am I dreaming?" – Jungkook questioned, making me laugh even more.
-No. Something like "I love you?" – I suggested while smiling.
-Did you know? Who told you? Was it Jimin-hyung?! – Jungkook asked, confused, and his cheeks, turning red.
-I deduced it last night when we were talking with ARMY. – I revealed, noticing that Jungkook's eyes were looking somewhere else. -Jungkook? – I called his name.
-I'm sorry; I don't know what to say. – Jungkook sighed before holding my hand. -I tried to hide it as much as I could, but I guess I didn't fool you. – He spoke, sounding sad about it.
-Hey, I love you too. So, don't worry about getting rejected. – I teased, making Jungkook chuckle slightly.
-I deduced that when you began to kiss me out of nowhere. – Jungkook imitated my words before laughing. He caressed my hair before lying down on the bed again.
I snuggled against him before taking Jungkook's hand. I closed my eyes while feeling his warmth, and then he kissed my head.
-Do you honestly love me? – Jungkook asked, concerned.
-Yes, and you? – I replied.
-Of course, I do. – Jungkook smiled while holding me tighter.
-I have so many questions for you, but I'll ask them once we get ready. – I told Jungkook, not wanting to mess up the moment.
-I want to ask you some things, as well, but I want to discuss that later. – Jungkook admitted while stroking my hair. -Right now, I want you to stay like this. – He murmured.
-Alright, I won't go anywhere then. – I assured before rubbing Jungkook's back. -Sorry for the rocky awakening; I couldn't wait for you to wake up. – I chuckled while smiling at Jungkook.
-Hmm, you couldn't, or you didn't want to wait, huh? – Jungkook questioned before hovering over me while tickling with his hands.
-Yah! Jungkook! – I laughed along with Jungkook as he kept on-going. But abruptly, he stopped and began to stare at me happily.
-You are a naughty, hyung. – Jungkook chuckled before pinning my hands against the mattress.
-No, never. – I smirked before Jungkook leaned closer and began to kiss me deeply. I let him take control while enjoying the softness from his movements, but suddenly, knocks on the door interrupted the moment.
-Are you waiting for someone? – I asked while looking at my lover.
-Hmm, I don't think so. – Jungkook said before getting away from me; he stood up from the bed before shouting. -Who's there?
-Jungkook, it's me, Yoongi. – I heard my hyung speak.
Jungkook immediately looked at me, concerned. I just nodded and got up from the bed and got towards the bathroom in seconds.
