Craving

Please

Please look at me while I try my best for you. I want to be in your dreams, thoughts but also in your bed. Acting innocent, hugging while our hearts beat faster, and you know that. You see in my eyes that I want, no, need more but you choose to ignore it like it's nothing. This is so new to me and my body. While I criticize my body and what I do, you simply give me peace and war.... You make me forget about my problems and my insecurities but make me whine like an animal in heat when you're gone. How dare you? How dare you reduce me to this? But if I am honest with myself, this is exactly what I wanted. I want to be used, turned, rubbed, kissed, slapped and anything you want. This is already enough but teasing me is just too much. I am not an object, I am just a human that needs to be treated like one for a bit. But I at the same time want to know you never meant it. Worship me and everything I am but when given my consent destroy me, till I am lost and never found. You are so innocent and new to this it's ironic. I was like that too but got more greedy with time. Is that so bad? To want everything and more? I go from kisses to licks, from hugging to hickeys and from jealousy to more jealousy. Please believe me, I have pure intentions but once you talk to me with your morning voice, something dark awakens inside of me. A need. I become so needy , not just for your body, but you as a whole being. Touch me more. No, not enough, I said more. Please.... stop torturing me. It feels so good but hurts so bad. Well I'll become a masochist just for you. You are happy under that innocent smile, so damn happy cause you made it. You made me cry, beg and whine for your touch at night. I bet you are stroking yourself at night while feeling that sadistic satisfaction. It's so embarassing . But I should be the one that touches your beautiful body like that. Why are you having fantasies about me when you can have the real thing ? I am right in front of you. I am perfectly fine and free but it's like you gagged and bound me to my own bed, waiting and waiting for a sensation that never came. Use my mouth and all my holes for whatever you want. Take your anger and lust out on me, I dont care anymore . I am simply imagining how you'd use me like a sex-toy and the sick part is, I'd love every single moment of it. Please make me yours and stop pretending. Please touch me there. Please...