How i hated you, Kageyama Tobio.
I hated that you lied.
I hated that you peeled off every layer of security i had.
I hated how your tongue carved lies upon my skin.
I hated that i was just a second choice.
I hated the innocent gleam in your eyes as your actions are otherwise.
Maybe if i press restart, will we have a better ending? Will i be happier?
Or will i bleed again?
There's no point in regretting now though.
I breathed in the suffocating air as i choked, the tears blurring my vision, my senses numb.
My body trembling.
Was it anticipation? Excitement to ur reaction? Regret? Fear? Pain?
No.
No negative thoughts.
I told myself.
The dark room started trembling vigorously, my head stinging as if someone was trying to forcefully screw a knife into it.
The door creaked open.
"Y/N?"
"Tobio..."
"Are you okay?"
That was the 156th time you asked that question.
"Yes....
That was the 156th time i answered back the same.
....so very not." I hissed.
Sorry back to 155th.
His eyes widened.
But still. Still he stood there.
"Get up ur makin a mess of my room..." he groaned, his voice sputtering out toxic.
I didnt budge.
"Do you love me? Tobio?"
He stopped. And smiled.
Darn that smile.
"Of course i do, Y/N."
Your lie ringing in my ears, i felt like i could rip that foul mouth of yours.
"I hate you too, Tobio."
He came closer, stepping on the glass shards of the photo frames of us I broke, them crunching underneath his weight.
He didn't even wince. Nor bat an eye.
His empty, dark hues of blue boring into mine.
Very lonely, empty hues of blues.
But,
very beautiful, mesmerising ones.
Very sly, haughty, naughty ones.
" Please, let's restart it, Tobio.Please?"
My voice calm and silent, but my insides screamed and begged, tearing my chords raw.
"Sure."
A gust of wind flew past us, sending ripped papers flying everywhere.
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Ah, what an euphoric feeling.
Deliciously peaceful. Serene. Calm.
I breathed in sweetly, the oxygen flowing in my lungs. I could feel the blood gushing through my veins.
It felt like a bunch of bricks are lifted from my shoulders, I didnt know why was I crying, my nose red and blocked, my eyes bloodshot and dry.
A beautiful stranger locked eyes with me.
What beautiful ,mesmerising hues of blues.
"Are you okay Y/N?"
"Yes."
"I love you."
His kiss gentle. But so foreign.
And so I prepared my lie.
"Me too."
He grinned.
He pulled me in closer, but I just felt colder.
As I braced for another lie once more.
They say fake it till you make it.
So I'd slowly count till I break.
Restart it is.
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Wow the angst. Hahahaha thanks for reading yall. Just a reader x kageyama angst oneshot. Hope yall liked it uwu😔💖🤲
