The series has ended. Every week we would come together chat watching the episodes, theorize, and obsess over this amazing love story. After watching Erkenci Kus over and over cutting to the parts I love, hate, and hate to love, I decided I needed...
First I just want to say thank you to everyone for reading my recaps. What I love most about writing them are the comments and the new people I have met along this journey. You mean the world to me and the fact that you actually care enough to reach out when I have been MIA is really special. I am sorry if it has taken me forever to respond to messages, and comments... Wattpad is not the easiest but really that is just an excuse... I will do better...keeping in touch is important to me but something I struggle with doing especially when the days in Covid seem to go into each other it is easy for me to just avoid and I am sorry.
Why I started doing these recaps...
I originally started writing these recaps for the EK group I am in. I was having a hard time saying goodbye to a show I loved. I dont like saying goodbye in general, but at the time I thought the 3 episode notice was cruel and it was hard to let go. Little did I know that was Star being kind as I sadly found out a few weeks ago, when Fox decided to cancel Bay Yanlis without letting them finish out the season properly. After Ek ended, I was missing that rush of adrenaline a new episode would bring, the discussion and angst of theories before the show, the gushing, swooning and comforting that we would get in our post-episode posts. So I decided to watch an episode a week to try to feel close to that again. I decided to do a recap, because that is what i missed most about EK was the group discussions, the jokes, the bts talk. People seemed to enjoy going back and talking and watching too. Eventually someone awesome in the group suggested I should put my recaps on wattpad. It was an idea I didnt think much of... who would want to read my thoughts on a show. The group liked them but they knew me... and so ya humor the crazy girl watching ek as if it was a new show week to week. I finally decided to upload my recaps, thinking it would just be an easy way for the group to read them. I never thought other people would care enough to read them as well. I was so blown away that people outside the group actually found my recaps and were going on this journey too. It made me feel like EK was still alive as the comments and discussions have always been my favorite part of my recap posts. I am so grateful for this... It makes me feel like I have friends I can watch with, love with, complain with, and use my corny old expressions with ;)
Why I stopped.... well... I didnt really stop I always knew I would come back but...
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1. these episodes in the 30s have been rough... i was killing myself watching episodes I wasn't enjoying... now that was fine when I had no shows to watch lol i can suffer for art but... I started watching shows I was really enjoying and they were new every week ... it gave me an energy that I needed for the difficult Covid Summer and I will forever be grateful for that. So I tried many times to finish episode 33 but I needed my tv escape to be more hopeful as covid has been really hard.
2. This reason is a little tricky because it really has nothing to do with these recaps, wattpad, or any of you ... There were members of the EK fandom that had been really ruining my watching experiences. The reason for this was because they would and still do ...join groups, comment on posts, or all together harass the people who do not see EK as the end all be all of romcom dizis... Now I do love EK but the way people were shoving EK and CanDem down my throat it really made me retreat... I Stopped writing, i stopped vidding ek and I focused on a show that gave me energy and peace during difficult times.... there is too much turmoil in the real world for my escape to be also a source of anxiety so I focused more on the shows I was currently enjoying and took a break.
Why I am starting again...
I realized I was letting them have power over me. These EK fanatics that equate eating pasta as being only an ek thing or using turkish words like 'patron' as copying EK really pushed me away from my love for EK... But why? Yes it was annoying to scroll past posts, have them comment about Candem on an Ezgur posts, trying to ignore the comments in the live watch etc ....but why should that immaturity stop me from keeping a show i love dear.... (Side point if you are watching a show you dont like... why?...and if for some reason you feel the need to do that, dont watch it live and ruin it for everyone while watching... especially with crazy claims of kissing someone on the hand is a canem move ...but i digress)... so I have been trying to start again.... trying to remember my love for EK without people trying to cause me anxiety from it...I stopped mid ep 33 before all of this and I am hoping to have it finished and posted by Sunday :)
So in conclusion after a long ramble... I'm Back Baby!*
*lmao i dont know why i chose that line as my final sentence but it felt right ;)
