Hopeless View

Prologue

"Davina Gonzales. Dead on arrival.
November 9, 2016... time of death,
4:39 in the morning."

While licking my lollipop, Auntie Santhi came to me and hugged me tight. I stiffened a bit and when she let go of me.. I saw coming tears from her eyes.

"Auntie. Why are you crying?" I said and I hugged her too. My mom told me that if someone's crying or sad, one hug will do.

"Stop crying, Auntie. Mom will be sad if she sees you.. okay?" I said while wiping her cheeks with my mom's handkerchief.

She nodded. She said that she will buy me food... I don't know why I don't have appetite, aayain ko si Mommy mamaya.

I stayed here. But the doctor came out! I stand hurried, and I run too fast because the doctor is acting to leave!

But I slipped... I cried in frustration. My ankle hurts, and my elbow too.
The doctor went to me.

"Hey, kid! Are you okay? Stop crying,
I'll treat you, where's your–"

The door opened, and I saw some nurse... but one person really caught my attention. My mommy is sleeping! Should I wake her up? She's probably hungry!

I stand up by myself and carried my doll with me. I'll tell my Mommy to blow my feet and elbow... I don't trust doctors.

"Hey, you're not allowed here!" The nurse blocked my way. But the doctor said something. I just smiled at her and said thanks to the doctor.

I giggled because my Mommy's sleeping, I really love when she's sleeping. I went to the other side of bed and put my doll in the table.

I stared at her face, I really like to stare at my Mommy's face. She looks like my doll, that's why I like my dolls.

I hugged her softly and kiss her cheeks. "Mommy. Aren't you hungry? Aren't you tired lying in that bed for an hour?" I asked her, does she hear me?

"Mommy, I really want to see a shooting star... but you won't allow me to stay for an hour in night. But I understand it! You don't want me to be sick that's why." I said to her, she's not even moving? Does my Mommy really love to sleep right now? When she will wake up?

"Mommy, have you witness earlier? I got slipped... it hurts so much. But when I saw you, all the pain goes away! But can I wake up you right now so you can blow what it hurts to me. It's swollen po." I said and pointing my elbow.

I know how to wake her up! Aha! I tickled her... but her body isn't moving? I put the strangle of my hair on her ears. But still she's sleeping.

The door opened, Auntie Santhi really bought me food! I am really hungry but I need to wake up my Mommy. I can't eat without her by my side.

"Auntie. Can you wake up Mommy? I tickled her so many times, but still sleeping. Is she tired that's why she's resting here on the Hospital?" I looked at Auntie Santhi and I hugged my Mommy.

"L-let's go, Raine. You have to eat first." She acted to touch my hand but I still stayed at my Mommy's side.

"No, Auntie. Mommy will wake up first. We can't eat without her, she might be sad... I don't want her to be sad." I said and I hold my Mom's hand.

"Can I sleep beside her? I don't want to eat if she's not awake.." I yawned. I'm really hungry but I can't afford to see my Mommy sleeping here and didn't eat pa.

"Raine..."

Auntie Santhi didn't eat but I told her to eat first, she's stubborn. My Mommy said don't skip breakfasts because it's important meal of the day.. but sorry Mommy, I did skipped the breakfast.