𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘

Let me tell you a story
About a 15 year-old girl
Grew up in a complete family
Had friends
Knew love

She, who always prefer to pipe down
She who has a good heart, but a weak one,
Understanding, but understands nobody
Tells the truth, but believes nobody
Sacrificing, but appreciates nobody,
Interesting, but interest nobody,
Failing, but pretending to be alright.

She's perfect, she's charming
She's sweet, she's caring
She's bountiful, she's loving
That's what she got inside
But no one knows this side.

Sometimes she keeps on smiling
Not knowing that she's hurting
Good at hiding and pretending
Problems she escapes, just to ease the pain.

Those lonely nights she couldn't sleep
Heaerng her parents wrangle
This having silently wept
Holding her favorite bangle.

Tries her best, but still her worst
Giving her attention? Greatest feeling for a daughter
Doubts her, trust to her lost
Comprehension and safety of everyone brings her laughter
A family she's proud of most
Can't even give although there is no cost.

Comparing to others, she is not vain
As if it depends on her future
Not giving her chances to explain
Like she is having a good torture
"Please wake me up, if this is just a dream"
"Hear me out, I really want to scream". (1)

Everyone thought that she is happy
Not letting them know and be wrong
Cause she don't want to be a hurdle
So she choosed not to mumble
Enjoying being optimistic
Really she has that characteristic
We have our own identity
'Cause we have individuality

"Why this is happening to me?"
"Is this how life's supposed to be?"
"Can someone hear my questions?"
"Badly I need explanations"

Her world is a mess,
Everyone thought that she's the best
Perception's less
Imputing her when she's not
If you're going to ask to manifest,
She is pathetic right?

Giving them smiles, giving her cries
Supporting their needs, supporting for nothing
Helping them arise and shine
Making her drop and undermine
No one notices that she's dying
'Cause all they know is that she's fine
No one notices that she needs them
'Cause they don't care what's sge got inside
Too much for her to taste it

Wonderng why she didn't force them to understand her,
Wondering too why she did nothing to talk to her, listen to her?
Why does she keep silent?
Why she is letting them hurt herself?
Why she is being like this?
She is breaking her own heart into pieces

Regrets when she is happy lately
She knows that sadness hither
Fate withhold her badly
If there's a time machine
She could've backed the time quickly
She should've seen the light of the world closer
Hoping someone will defend her
Someone who'll indicate she's crucial

Questions, doubts, failures
Tucking her in
Didn't know hot to end this
Answers, trust, starts, appreciation
Dying for it
Didn't know when she'll feel this

When she met him, the world changed
She was in the dark
Now she's in the light
Her life got spark
She's diffrrent in his eyes
She was down, he was there to cheer her up

It's been three years since she's in love
So hard to hide it so rigid
A man sent by God from above
So clear and true, so vivid
A love that so unfair
"Why so many a man, will you be the one?"
"To think that he's my pair?"
Does anyone admire her? none.

If there's only one who could hear
A burden she couldn't bear
Wishing he was there to lean and cry on
Her friends that she love so dear

Many times tried telling what she feels
Wishing they were harmonious
Many times tried avoiding what she feels
'Cause loving him is acrimonious
Confused what to choose
Feelings or friendship
Like she was going to loose
Wishing to have that relationship

There she goes crying alone and again
Letting the tears flow with the rain
Nobody will notice how she's in pain
Laughing at her problems like it was fun
Time will pass, everything is fine

Hate her, for being like this
Better there to accompany
It's just so sad to see her like this
But why being so dazzling?
"Just don't give up, cheer up"
Enough to hear that from one
Trying not to cry, but her tears betray
Don't watch her cry
In this world she goes astray
Little bit crazy true but treatibg her fake
Instead of thinking fray
Better to turn and pray

Staring at the moon and stars
Listening to the whistle of the air
Gazing at the ocean
Watching the sunrise till the sunset
Sitting above the sands
Listening to the sound of waves
At this moment she finds accomodation

There's still a lot of things to face
Sometimes we've got to lose
Trying hard to face all the race
Just as it was, like taking an overdose
There's nothing we can do but just go with our thoughts
Through good and bad times
Through positive and negative thoughts
It's just part of our lives

Listening to music
Having her sudden inaudibilty
Like there was no tomorrow
Letting her heart feel it
Her heart that's full of sorrows
There she is writing on her diary
Where she always finds her SERENITY.