Random Excerpts in Thought

It's Over Now

I stared at the lifeless body before me; his blue eyes slowly clouded over to show that he was finally dead. My eyes blur out from the tears that formed, slowly rolling down my rose red cheeks as I cried in grief. He was gone; he was all I had left.

"Is he..." Clara kneeled down beside me as she glanced at the body; her green eyes tear up but she did not give in. She just sat there in silence as the answer was right in front of her. Soon she got back up and left me to be alone with Jace's body. I never even got to tell him I loved him.. But I noticed something. Something oddly unfamiliar. Jace had a smile on his face, a small smile that puzzled me along with his clouded blue eyes which stared at me. It was like he tried telling me or showing me something. Like he was happy he sacrificed himself to protect me. To save me. As I studied his face my lips slowly curled into a smile as well; you knew the entire time.

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After school I sat on one of the benches; the funeral was a week ago but I didn't believe he had left me at all yet. I could still feel his soft presense as it lingered everywhere I go. It was like he was watching me, wanting to protect me from life's harm. With every passing memory I can think of it all went back to the first day I met him, Jace Wallins. From studying together to hanging out with our friends after school to almost having our first date. Jace Wallins, the boy I'll never forget for as long as I live. He, Jace Wallins, helped me through life's Hell and made me the better person I am today. He is the reason why I am still here today and all because of him, he sacrificed his own life just so I can help and correct mine. He was my Superman, my world, and most of all my everything.

A soft wind blew past me, brushing my hair back slowly as I look up and seeing a white outline of a human figure.

It.. Was Jace's ghost.

As I finally recognized the figure my mouth slowly opened in shock, but no words came out. The ghost swiftly and slowly made his way to me and knelt down before me. I could feel him take my hand and softly plant a kiss on the back of my palm as his blue eyes looked at me and the corners of his lips draw back in a smile; the same smile he had when his life was drawn away from him. No matter how many times I wanted to bawl and think about giving up, I didn't. My eyes slowly quivered with tears and my lips curved in a smile. His smile extended slowly as he stood and leaned himself forward me. His pale white lips pressed against my forehead as a gasp escaped my lips; it felt like he was actually here, like he was actually touching me phyiscally to comfort me. To let me know that he was still here for me.

As the contact broke he then leaned closer to my ear as he whispered; "Be good, okay? You can still make this, whether I'm here or not, you can still live a better life. Now go live it, and never forget who helped you live it."

I couldn't hold it in anymore, but I held it back as best as I could. Jace knew this would happen and he knew that it happened for this reason. He drew back and looked at me once again, those blue eyes reflecting off mine as he took small steps back. I quickly and desperately reached my hand out and he took it slowly. His lips mouthed the words "It's over now, but it's just beginning" as he smiled once more and my fingertips slipped out of his white ghostly hand. Jace's ghost turned around and as he walked he waved behind, slowly starting to fade as he made his way to the light.

"I love you.." was what I could finally get out. He stopped and glanced over his shoulder and gave a smirk. Those blue eyes looked at me one last time before he went off again, and vanished into thin air.

"Tira?" a voice called out. My attention then turned over to the sound of the voice. I quickly wiped my eyes before responding.

"Y-Yes?"

"Do you need a ride?"

"I guess so.. My mother was supposed to be here." I looked back over and noticed it was Clara. She nodded then smiled before gestured her head back.

"Let's go then."

"Alright."

I got up and caught up to her as we then made our way into the parking lot. Clara and I got into her pickup as she started the engine, put the car into drive and began to pull out of the lot as the engine purred like a soft kitten. We kept silent for a few moment before she finally decided to pick up a conversation.

"How are you feeling? After the fineral and.. Y'know.."

"I feel okay. I mean, I miss him and all but... He did it for a reason."

"Well.. At least he's in a better place.. At least it's over now."

"It really isnt over." Clara raised a brow as she glanced in my direction.

"What do you mean?"

"It's not over. It's just getting started.. Just the beginning."