Default Title - 'Father Be back'

'Father Be Back'

One afternoon, an unexpected thing I've experienced in my whole life is the loss of my father. That can make my whole family and life changed. Wishing my father could be back again.

My father died when I was 15. Gun ambush while he was driven his motorcycle. It was March 15. It was Friday. After school, while I'm walking to went home, someone asks me if I knew that my father was shoot. I don't know if I will believe him and I can't explain what I felt at that time. But what I always put in my mind while going home is that my father is brave enough to fight. When I arrived home, no one there so I decided to go to our neighbor and I ask where my mother was?

Me: Uncle can I ask where is mom? Uncle Boy: She went to your father where the incident happened. Me: Uncle Boy I don't know what I felt right now it seems like I'm going to break my heart. Uncle Boy: Don't be like that just think positively your father is brave enough to fight.

It's been an hour while I'm waiting who's someone to get me there. Until such time my older brother and my cousin came to pick me so I went home to change my clothes. When I got home, it was very dark, I couldn't see anything because we don't have light at all. I was not scared and I continued to dress. While we were riding the motorbike, my older brother said;

Bryan: Mae, the father is gone. Me: What? But how? Who did this to him? why he just left us? ( and I started to cry). Cousin: We can't do anymore but just accept the truth, we can no longer get back his life. Me: (crying)

I still can't believe it because I think my father is strong enough to fight. When I saw my father my tears suddenly flowed. It was a pity to look at my father's face because it was full of blood and small stones on it. Losing a father is like losing a best friend we can't prevent what circumstances and problems may come but just accept the facts that we only live once in this world.
The next day comes, father buried at the cemetery of Lunas, Argao. This is the last day I saw him I can no longer hug, kiss, and bless him. It was the hardest thing I have ever been through. I feel so sad, his the only man I know who can't hurt his children with just a single hit of a broomstick. For me his the best father I have been known in my whole life as a best friend and twins. He always saves me in times of problems that gave what I need. I wish you could be back our loving father. After the incident happened, my father's death finally came to justice. He was killed by one of our neighbors in my mother's side place. No one can ever think that fathers friend can do this to him. Father gave treat him as a brother he even helps when in need but he just wastes it and adds big problems in return.

As days pass by we lived our family in a silent place where no can hurt us again. The mother gets a job for our daily living. We slowly find ways to move on the things we've never expected to happen. Starting a new day without him it seems to be boring but we still think the most powerful of all, and it's God. We pray often for the soul of our father to be heaven. And I know if it weren't for my dad, I would never be the person I am today. As an older daughter in the house, I will slow down taking a deep breath, remember to be kind, work as hard as I can and be grateful for everything I have. I will do things that scare me, challenge myself, and keep my heart open. I will create a life that honors his legacy and remind you that a good thing can come from pain, so don't ever lose hope because you are not alone. You are beautiful, you are resilient, you are human in your way, and despite the hardships, happiness is right around the corner.

Written by: Glaiza Mae M. Carrillo