Never Love Again (on-going)

PROLOGUE: Making myself a Fool

Abegail Manalastas' POV

Lol, they might be so stupid to assume I'll be believing them. I cannot believe my friends just defamed Alec, how dare them. I know mahal na mahal ako ni Alec at hindi niya ako ipagpapalit kahit kanino. I love him and I have proven that a lot of times already.

I stormed off the room, dahil magkikita pa kami ni Alec, actually this isn't planned, I just feel like visiting him. I just got furious because my friends told me, na nakita daw nila si Alec yesterday sa bar, may kahalikan na babae, they did not go to that bar, they just happened to pass by dahil katapat sa bar kung saan nila nakita si Alec ay yung favorite namin na Milk Tea shop, I told them, they might have just blurred their eyes out, at namamalikmata lang sila.

I'm on my way out, then this happened.

"Abegail, stop! Are you crazy?!" Ryzza shouted, her voice was a mixed hurt and disappointment.

"What?! You guys should seriously leave me alone." I bit back. No, I can't just let them talk shit about Alec.

"Wh-who are you? You are not the Abegail we once knew, you changed, you've gotten this careless and pathetic!" Ryzza exclaimed and that made me stop and somehow that fueled my anger.

"What?! Im still the old Abegail, you once knew, I was just giving Alec the benefit of a doubt since he's not here defend himself!" I exclaimed at her, she smirked with frustrations and disbelief.

"Giving him the benefit of a doubt?are you hearing yourself? You clearly assumed that he did not do shits behind your back! That's not giving someone the benefit of a doubt, and to tell you, what do you think we told you about what we saw yesterday?!" She said, shes clearly angry, I can tell.

"No! Alec wouldn't do such thing against me, he loves me, and I love him, we both love each other!!" I said, hindi magagawa iyon ni Alec, he loves me and I'm sure about that.

"Oh hala sige! Bahala ka! And by the way, Congrats for Graduating already, I hope you and Alec would have great years ahead." After Ryzza told me that, she went back to the room.

I looked down, I'm feeling sorry and I suddenly felt extremely anxious. I feel like something's going to happen.

I rode a taxi going to Alec's condo, I might as well celebrate my Graduation with Alec. Me and my friends already graduated yesterday and we actually had a little celebration yesterday and today was supposed to be the actual celebration and I guess that's not happening anymore because they just ruined it.

I walked at the hallway, and I'm feeling a foreign feeling that I can only feel when reading something. Something's up.

I pulled out the access card, since Alec gave me a spare card if I would want to visit him. I dont know but I felt de ja vu.

I entered his room, I saw, a, a panty?! What? Am I thinking what I'm thinking? Are my friends right?

You know what? I'm rummaging his room and see what is he doing with someone who owns this panty, I grossly picked up the undergarments.

And then there!! I saw Alec fucking, in fairness, she's maganda. Not bad

"Oh what an activity!! Part ba to sa Physical Education niyo? Im sure you both would have the highest grade!" I said sarcastically, the scene honestly made me numb and I did not feel sorry at all, I felt a burden within me. So this is what intimate pain feels like, wow.

"What the heck, Abe!!" He shouted, wow so Abe nalang ngayon, wala ng babe, lol.

"Surprise Alec!!! Omge what a scene!! Care to explain?!" I said, while not breaking my smile, ang sakit besh, like for real, it hurts, it fucking hurts, wow.

"Love, you go home now, I'll deal with her first" he said and kissed the girl on the lips. That made my heart sprung in pain. Wow, just wow.

The girl immediately wore her clothes and she grabbed her cheap avon panty from my hands. Wow ha? As if naman gusto ko nakawin yung cheap na panty niya? Ano gusto niya? Ipag shopping ko pa siya eh!

"Abegail, what you saw just proves something, I'm breaking up with you." He said lifelessly.

"Oh wow, okay, I accept that but why? Am I not enough? I changed myself for you, isn't that enough?" I told him, but I did not cry. It's hard, this will be so hard.

"YES!! IT'S HARD, YOU KNOW WHY?! YOURE TOO MUCH!! YOURE TOO COVERED, YOURE TOO LOYAL WITH YOUR PRINCIPLES, I HAVE FUCKING NEEDS AND YOU CANNOT GIVE THAT TO ME!!!" he shouted, I've never seen him this agitated, ever. He's becoming someone I do not know.

"Wha-what do you mean?!" I said and I even cracked my voice, I was just so shocked seeing things like this.

"What did I mean?! You're seriously asking me that?!" He said, as if he couldnt believe me asking that question.

"Tell me Abegail!! What is the only thing that I've been asking from you?! I begged you, but you always refuse to give it to me!!!" He shouted at my face, never have I imagine to experience this from him. I know what he is referring to, it's for us to have sex. I've always refused to do it, because I wanted to give it to him after we get married and I would never give it to someone who's shallow to even have this reason for a break up. Good thing I've never given it to him.

"Is that it?! I thought you respected my decision?! And now, you're doing this?!" I said.

"Yes!! But Abegail, it's too late, I'm fucking tired waiting, so you can leave now!!" He said and bumped me before going inside the bathroom.

I was left dumbfounded. I left his condo as if my soul have been sipped out from me. This is exhausting, never will I associate myself with relationship ever again. It hurts like hell.

Pumasok ako sa elevator and pressed the ground floor area. Kinuha ko yung cellphone ko sa bag. I opened it, pumunta ako kaagad sa twitter account ni Alec and how I wished that I never did, he already changed his header with the picture of that cheap girl with avon panty. I heaved a stressful sigh, now, I've gotten crumpled relationships with Alec and my friends.

Lumabas ako elevator at lumabas sa condominium. Nakita ko naman sina Rheya and Ryzza sa labas ng condominium, ha?! Bakit sila andito?

"Hali ka na, sumakay ka na sa sasakyan ni Khylle, susunod kami." Ryzza said, I hugged them.

That is when I cried my heart out. Ang sakit sakit, it's as if inukit yung dibdib ko at mismo kinuha yung puso ko't piniga ng isang tao na pinagkakatiwalaan ko. It hurts like I'm more than a deceased man.

"I'm sorry, I'm very sorry!!" I cried and sobbed my words out. Ang bigat sa dibdib, ang bigat bigat.

"Burn all my letters, all of my secrets, things only you know. Bury my heart, six feet under, throw us a funeral"
- Funeral by Zara Larsson