Chained to Mr. Billionaire

DRAINED SOUL

"What if I told you that I love you? Would you tell me that you love me back?"
- What if I told you that I love you (Alie Gatie)

Do you wanna meet?

I got a text message from Miles at nine in the morning. I haven't had gotten home to take a shower and change but my stomach was already growling when I smelled a burger from inside the cab. It wasn't the right time for me to smell them.

Realizing I haven't even eaten for already twelve hours. Skipping dinner and breakfast. From the corner of my eyes, I see the driver stopping for the stoplight and reached the plastic wrap beside him. I sighed and returned my attention to my phone. Quickly typing away a response for Miles' message.

What time? I haven't showered yet.

Ten? I know a coffee shop two blocks away from your place.

I'll be there.

I tore my eyes away from my phone. Clutching at it as I noticed we just had arrived in front of the entrance building. I fished my hand inside my bag and handed him the cash. Smiling at him before opening the door and slipping out of it.

The warm air wrapped my exposed skin. Blue skies and bright sun smiling down in the morning. Not that I haven't noticed as I left Shane's old home. It felt as if last night wasn't pouring wild rain and wasn't chilly at all. In fact it is near Autumn already. New Yorkers were already putting up a sale on their clothing shops. Including some bags and shoes. I had noticed it as I gaze at the shops around the building. 

"Have a great day, Miss!" I hear the driver says as he smiles at me. I smiled back at him and replied with a "you too" before closing the door. He immediately drove off to somewhere that left me all alone standing across the building.

The busy streets again and noisy ones. It was another day that I should be getting used to again. A dream that I had fallen to for a short time. The living person who knew of her mother killed herself for being born. I should be really getting used to it.

Not wanting to waste another minute, I made my way towards the entrance. Heading my way to my apartment. Grabbing the key from my bag and walked up the stairs. My shoes echoing through the stairway. I couldn't help but think if there is a specific reason why Miles wanted to meet all of a sudden. At this morning.

Maybe he wanted to cheer me up or specifically really had something on his mind. But at this time, I wanted to be both left alone and not to be left alone. Just forget this lingering emotion that were bursting out on my heart. The feeling that makes me sick in my gut.

After last night, I didn't receive any message from Marko nor Josh. Deep inside I know I shouldn't be blaming Marko like hating him for the rest of my life but it is hard to forgive someone that fast. I wasn't yet ready to face him.

I know I needed time away from him. Even if it means changing my cellphone number or not coming home for awhile. Even if they insist to. I may be overreacting about everything but the fact is that, All of it is so foreign for me. I don't know how to deal with it when nobody taught me at all. Growing up alone without the love of my parents. I only had relied to different maids per day.

That was why I only had learned all these things that I felt. That I'm feeling right now. Being with Shane enlightened my heart and the only thought I had was loving only her as my bestfriend and sister and no one else. But then I was forced into the truth and I had learned how to love somebody else. Romantically. Took me to a rollercoaster of emotions. Only to be backfired against me. It is confusing for me. I hated it.