Our strange love

My first day at the new school

I opened my eyes and the sun was shining brightly directly in my eyes.I couldn't help but rub my eyes. After waking up, I kept on feeling as if I was forgetting something but, I couldn't figure out what it was, so me being me I went back to sleep because I was exhausted and I sure do love sleeping.

"Get the fuck up Ferry, you going to be late for your first day at your new school" I could hear someone screaming those words from the kitchen, I couldn't help but wake up, and did the norm and I took a shower and got ready for my first day at my new school, but before I went to school I went to a sacred place I call the stoner house. I got there and rolled myself a pretty long blunt and I hit it solo.

I walked to the bus stop high as hell thinking about how my first day would have been , I was scared and nervous. The bus arrived and I entered and I could feel everybody's eyes stabbing me. I wondered if it was because I looked high or was it because I reeked of marijuana, I ignored their intimidating looks and took a sit right at the back of the bus.

After a few minutes the bus finally arrived at the new school. God, I was nervous my brain couldn't even function properly, I felt like throwing up but I grabbed a bottle of water from my bag and took a few sips and told myself" I got this."and that actually helped. I walked into the new school and everything felt different the atmosphere felt different, the learners were different the school looked different, and everybody was screaming and shouting because of how happy they were to see one another after a long time. I felt like running away (due to the fact that they made me feel as if I don't belong) and going far to a place that I'd feel secure and definitely not feel overwhelmed and anxious about everything. I stopped observing my surroundings and went behind a tree and hid myself and took out a novel and read.As I was reading somebody nervously tapped my shoulder and I turned and looked at her. My mind was saying a lot but my mouth couldn't seem to say anything. I waited for her to say something to break the awkward silence.
She looked at me and released a little cute smile I'll never forget and finally said :
"Hey my name is Candy and I'm in 11x you must be the new guy. you are Ferry right?"

I looked at her for a while before I answered because as I was wondering how she knew my name since  I certainly was not wearing a name tag with my name written on it...
After a while I decided to respond
"Hey ...uhmm yes my name is Ferry"
"Have you figured out which class you are in?"' She asked
"I...uhmm...no I haven't figured out where my class is because I thought they would be a ... uhmm never mind that, how do I find out which class I am in?" I said nervously
"You have to go to the notice board which is near the reception area, you should then look for your name and next to it is your class."
"Oh,uhmm thanks let me get to it then"
"After you've checked out your class please come back to me so that I can lead you go your class."
"Sure" I responded as I made my way to the notice board

After a minute of walking I got to the notice board and it was packed and everybody was pushing each other like scavengers who were fighting for the remains of a caucus. As I was
watching everybody push each other it made me feel more nervous. I just stood there and observed everybody being pushed while they were pushing someone else. I waited and waited until the hyenas finally move.I went to the board and surprisingly it didn't take me that long to find my name and along my name was a sign that I was in the X class.

I rushed back to Candy to tell her that I'm in her class.After telling her we went straight to class and as I walked in the new environment  I felt my muscles ache. I looked at the back of the classroom and two girls sitting at the back of the class , since I was new and I didn't want to sit at the front and be the center of attention. As I was pulling the chair to take a seatone of the girls made a sound that grabbed my attention, I quickly turned to look at her, and she smiled at me, I didn't want to be mean or make things awkward so I smiled back, and we had a little conversation
"Hey I'm Belinda, you must be the new guy." She said
"Hi, I'm Ferry" I shrugged "I guess I am the new guy"
"You so cute, isn't he cute Ashanti?"
"Yeah he's cute" replied the girl next to her.
"Oh uhmm thanks guys ... I wasn't aware of that I'm cute" I blushed
After that short conversation I started feeling some sort of relief. My anxiety went down and my high was slowly facing away.

Shortly after that conversation school started and everything was okay, I was overthinking everything like I usually do. After a few hours school ended and I went back home feeling like I was carrying the world on my shoulder.