Please feel something for me

let's start this shit show

Dear diary,

           I suppose this was some lame way for Hermione to make herself feel better for permanently damaging me. She hands me some notebook during our herbology class as if it makes up for the PTSD ill have with me for the rest of my life! I know I can't stay mad at her for long, but she could have to give me a warning she would be shagging on right before we were supposed to study!!

I'm bloody pissed, of course. after I walked in on such a terrifying sight I ran! just before I was about to catch the door and run as fast as I could down to the dungeons, harry potter of all people, decides to grab my arm and pull me back inside the common room, he put his hand over my mouth. "don't be angry with me, I'm just here to help." YES, harry potter said that to ME! Does he think he can come into my day and treat me as if I'm a child because he's the chosen one or some shit like that? It was redundant and, needless to say, absolutely embarrassing for me. 

I can only imagine what Draco Malfoy would have done if he saw me. Probably think I'm some Potter fangirl like ginny weasely. I feel nauseous just thinking about the situation I was in that day; ugh, it's like the second wave of embarrassment splashes in my face while writing this. 

After potter took his hand off my mouth, I felt I wanted to scream, shout, ANYTHING, but just as I was about to hiss at him for even touching me, I see him. The one person at this school I knew, would tell everyone if he saw me anywhere near the golden trio. Why? Because for some fucked up reason, Draco luscious Malfoy feels attached to me. YES ME! the boy everyone thinks has only hatred in his heart thinks of me as a friend. But not a "friend" like Crabbe and Goyle, Malfoy is a completely polar opposite person as soon as he meets with my gaze. And we all know what this means... AHAHAHA, I'm just kidding! There is no humanly possible way Draco thought of me as more than a friend; Malfoy is totally incapable of ever feeling and emotion besides hurt and jealousy. I know this because of our weekly "therapy" sessions where we were both supposed to share. However, every time it's just Draco ranting about his father, harry, or her... 

He never shares a name, only a short description. Brown hair, hazel eyes, and (his words not mine) and "ass worth a block of gold" OF COURSE HE SAYS THAT!! Draco doesn't need to ruin another girl's life. It's always the same, he talks to them for a while, and when they start pushing themselves on to him, he dumps them as if their hot trash. I feel absolutely terrible for the girls; imagine if you talk to a guy and not just any guy, DRACO MALFOY! and when you try to be physical with him, you left in the dust.

Okay, so the reason I bring all this up, and I started rambling, but WHO CARES IF I RAMBLE? IT'S MY DIARY!! But in our late nights talking, one of DRacos topics is HArry. Why does he hate him so much!??! It never made much sense to me why Draco was the was he was so cold and meant to everyone, why he didn't have more friends, but he had me... but he wouldn't if he saw me hanging out behind a couch witch his rival!!! Okay, s back to the present time!

When the door opened, Draco was standing there quietly in the hallway. His posture was off; he was standing as if he was drunk! Totally slouched, and he looked tired. His eyes drooped down, making him look like a hobo, but he still walked as if he was fine. His head peeked through the door reaching to the couch me and harry were huddled behind. Harry and I were close... too close! Slightly lift my left foot (keep in mind I'm squatting down) and move it a couple of inches behind me. This is when all hell breaks loose. I place my black polished shoe onto my skirt, and it glides right behind me, causing me to slip and fall face-first into Harry's lap! I REALLY COULD NOT GO ONE DAY WITHOUT GETTING MYSELF IN DRAMA!!! When I feel I made some weird ass noise and I knew...he knew...and most importantly Draco now knew.

AN: thank you for reading the first chapter! I don't want this to be smutty fanfic, so I think I will keep it pg-13 and make it more of a wholesome story...

Please keep in mind this is one of my first story and while I know the plot is weird and it seems as if it's going to be a love triangle with harry, it is not! while writing this, it's just kind of happened, and y/n will still try to stay away from Harry.