Innocence (ben bruce fanfic)

Sin for me

I sank against the bathroom wall, clutching my bottle of vodka.
The same few words seemed to echo from my mind and throughout the room.

"You're a fucking idiot"

Those god damn words wouldn't leave my side.

How did I get myself into this?

I took another large gulp of vodka, burning my throat.
The burn was all I wanted.
I needed to feel something other than this.

Slowly I stumbled to my feet to look at myself in the mirror.

My eyes were hollow and empty. My once pink, soft lips were now cracked and pale.

I applied some more lipstick before shattering the mirror with my bare fist.
I didn't mind the blood dripping from my knuckles. I'd given up on being classy.

As I opened the bathroom door I was greeted by his devilish grin.

"Here, take this" he smiled, handing me a single blue pill.
I stuck my pasty tongue out and waited for the sickening yet satisfying taste of the drugs seeping into my tongue.

I wasn't always this bad. I really wasn't.
Once upon a time I was as sweet and innocent as they come.