LIfe behind a fake smile </3

Hi you may know me as a girl with a big smile :)

but do you know the real me

Im Emma im 15 years old with short black hair and big blue eyes i always have a smile on my face .. everyone says " oh emma you such a beautiful

girl you are always happy and always soo strong"

but the truth is .. im not ? they dont know what i have been through and that i keep a fake smile on my face 24/7 only because i dont want they to see what i am inside becuase what i really am is a mess ..

i wake up every morning and i put a mask on .. ( my make up) to cover up all the things im scared of.

Then i get dressed and do my hair .. and then im off to school /... i dont eat anymore that much becuase i got called fat ..

but do u wanna know the real story about why i fake a smile every day

well idc if u wanna know or not ima tell u

This is the real me and my real life

when i was 4 years old i lived with my mom and her bf it was amazing .. but then it started getting bad .. like he hit her and pushed her and really really hurt her i was scared i didnt know what to do i cried my self to sleep every night this happend untill i was 11 years old

by my 11th birthday i was soo sick of the fighting and yelling i ran away .. my moms boyfriend chaced me down the road with a bat i ran .. ran as fast as i could to my papas house witch wasnt that far way

i ran inside and i said to my papa "hes gonna kill me papa hes gonna kill momma"

my papa called the cops and got him put in jail but ever since then i wasnt the same :(

i was scared to ever life with another guy again... the C.A.S came and made me life with my papa and nana.

it was really a amazing .. i was finaly happy <3 i got soo close to my papa he was my best friend .. but he made me start a new school .

I was soo. Scared the first day of school I walked in re school on step.7th 2009 and everything changed