This One's For You //cth

ocho.

A/N;; it's so convenient to use the truth when it's laughing in your face

When I pulled away, he had this look of awe on his face. His lips were parted and swollen, and I felt my cheeks heat up.

I had wanted to do that for unbelievably long. A tension lingered in the air, and neither of us knew what to say. I was about to speak when my phone buzzed.

Cellaaa<3<3: Hey ;*

me: hiya. Can't talk, with calum now. Love ya. xo

Cellaaa<3<3: Oh, uhm, okay.

I put my phone back on my dresser and absentmindedly twisted the ring on my finger.

“Noelle?” I look up to have my eyes meet Calum's gentle, caring pair.

“That kiss, it didn't um, change anything, right?” Oh no, I'm totally not crushing on you big time..

“No, of course not, I have a-,”

“a girlfriend, right,” He nodded simply and flashed me a sad smile, like he had hoped I said something else.

Some people don't believe in love, yet others wish for it. Truthfully, when people say love is the most profound thing, they're 100% correct. When we are in love, we are both completely in danger and completely saved. It's like being at shore, but you're drowning at the same time. It's ironic.

You don't really think about it, but it's dangerous. One wrong move, somebody is in tears.

But where people are wrong, is when they say 'it was love at first sight'. That's wrong on many levels. You can be interested in somebody, but you can't be in love with somebody you don't know.

The question I couldn't bring myself to answer; do I love her?

// haha nd then what ;);) //

“What on Earth are you talking about?” Quiet exasperated sighs slipped through my lips, which were pressed together in a straight line.

“You've changed, Elle,” Marcella frowned, speaking slowly.

“You don't know me anymore, not like you ever did anyways,” I rolled my eyes, crossing my arms tightly over my chest.

The park we were at silenced briefly, before returning to normal.

“You know, Cell, I was happy-,”

“Elle-,”

“No. I was happy. My classes were great, my friends and I were always together, I was free to do what I wanted. But you,” I pointed my finger at her shakily, my voice full of frustration, “you come from nowhere and ruin it all.”

“I know you don't mean that Noelle,” Marcella's voice was 100% disbelief, she shook her head slightly.

“No, no, no. I mean that. Don't tell me- stop! You do this every time! You get into my head. I'm tired of this. I'm tired of you!” I struggled.

Needless to say, she was surprised. Maybe hurt.

I threw my iced coffee in the trash, sighing to myself.

“I'm done with this, Marcella. I'm so done with this,” I was on the verge of tears now, but I blinked them away. I just wanted to have a good college experience, yet here I am, fucking yelling at my girlfriend in a public park. What a time to be alive.

“You're walking away?” I nodded, “You're walking away because it's easier to run than to deal with your problems, than to deal with the people you love.”

“Then you know what? Maybe I don't fucking love you!”

// it just went down. did anybody yell timber orrr //

Cellaaa<3<3: baby

Cellaaa<3<3: I know you didn't mean that

Cellaaa<3<3: baby girl

Cellaaa<3<3: please

Cellaaa<3<3: I love you

Cellaaa<3<3: why are you doing this

Cellaaa<3<3: you're so different now

Cellaaa<3<3: noelle..

Me: I am not different. I simply stopped acting the way you wanted me to. Btw, we're over. :---)

Unknown number: fine.

Unknown number: i'm really sorry.

Me: okay that's cool lol I don't care you don't gotta apologize

Unknown number: just thought I should let you know, when I cancelled that date, I was having sex with michael. xo.

Me: do you feel good about yourself or.. cause I kissed calum lmfao

Me: he's a better kisser than you

Me: and you can say Mike's a better fuck but just remember that I don't have a dick!! so you can't compare!!

I guess Michael was the one everybody went to when they needed a quick fuck? Weird. Figured he'd have more self respect than to ruin relationships.

Unknown number: glad you've already moved on.

Me: sweetie, it was over before it even began. x

Unknown number: just delete my number. Goodbye.

Me: done, and done. peace

After everything that happened in the past few weeks, I was already done with everything. I yawned, rubbing my eyes. Sadly, I forgot I had eyeliner on and mentally cursed at myself. I hesitantly got up and went into my bathroom, taking out a makeup wipe and wiping at my eyes, quickly washing away the ruined eyeliner. It was too early to go to bed, and I had no classes for the rest of the day, so I did the one thing I did best.

I pulled the blanket around me, turning the TV on and logging into Netflix.

I selected Lost from my recently watched list, grinning to myself with excitement as the episode started.

Right now, I'd rather be on that island with Jack and Kate instead of here.

A/N;; whew okay that was horrible. SORRY it took some time omg I love you guys and if you read my story and like it at all thank you so much for voting or commenting, it really does make my day to see that people actually ENJOY my shitty writing and it makes me want to update faster for you guys.

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