I have a tendency to think the worst will happen. For instance, my dad is 2 minutes later then he said he was going to be?
Me: he's fine, whatever.
My brain: OH MY GOD, MY DAD IS DEAD AND NOW I ONLY HAVE ON PARENT AND I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GO THE FUNERAL AND I'LL START CRYING SOON IF HE DOESN'T COME HOME!!!
So...yeah. I'm bad at having calm thoughts. But these thoughts really do have an effect on me. I'm trying to joke about it, but sometimes I can't sleep at night because my dad hasn't gotten home from rehearsal. Or because I'm thinking about my family dying. Sometimes I sneak into my little brother's room at night to make sure he's alive.
And I know that the chances of something terrible happening to my family is very small, but there's still a chance! So I do everything I can to prevent it. It's one of the only things I have a small bit of control over in this chaos of a life.
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My Manic Mind
Документальная прозаThis is the thoughts that go on in my head. Each chapter title is one topic of thoughts from my list. Yeah, I have a list. Read on if you want. If not, what should I care?
