"You have to let me go", I say sullenly
"But you need me", she said comfortingly
"I'm fine on my own", I said with a frown on my face
"You can't live without me", she spited me
"I can learn, I think its time for me to learn", I said, as convincingly as I could
"You'll never be alone", she said, as a threat more than a promise
"I need to be alone!", I shouted at the top of my lungs, feeling the tears sting my eyes and the bile rise in my throat. "I feel like I'm going crazy", I continued in a hollow voice, the words like acid on my tongue
"But you'll always have me", she said in a futile attempt at comfort
"Just go", I breathed out with my last strength
"Never!", her shout reverberated inside me, making my ears ring at the sheer sound
"Stop screaming in my ears", I mumbled as I covered the sides of my face
"Oh honey, but I'm not", in a voice that somehow sounded closer now, the familiarity of it almost comforting
I took the pill they gave me and she was gone without a last word. But I knew she'd be back. She always is. Now, as I look into the mirror, the waiting game begins.
