Say Hello, Wave Goodbye -- Louis Partridge

13. There Must Be An Angel

I couldn't pay attention to anything on Sunday, and tomorrow I had my drama exam. I didn't know what to do, for once in my life I couldn't plan event ahead of time. It wasn't even the actual exam... it was mocks and yet I didn't want to look at Louis' face, knowing that I hurt him. So on Monday I deliberately entered form class the latest so I didn't have to hover around knowing Louis was behind me. Instead, I faced Ms Laftsbury yelling at me in front of the whole class for ten minutes about how I even am unorganised on the first day of mocks. We had study period before the exam but it was in the library but twenty minutes before the exam we were allowed to wait outside the theatre. I decided to go early so it would help me with nerves, I thought Louis would be with his friends so I halted when he was sitting on the floor with his eyes closed. I moved loudly so he would realise I was here. When he realised I was there, he nodded. That was it. A nod. 

"Thanks, for the necklace, it was really nice." Nice? That was the lamest word I know. He nodded again. Silence. "You know, I heard you had to speak in dialogue, practicing wouldn't be too hard. Besides, if you don't speak before the exam how will you know if your voice box has disappeared?" He stared at me and scowled.

"I know how to speak, Ava. All I'm doing is not overstepping boundaries."

"What boundaries?" I knew exactly what he meant.

"Friendship boundaries. So, Ava, I wish you good luck." He stands up and I think he has finally forgiven me. He was going to hug me and it would all be over. But, he pulled his hand out. I stared at his fingers for what seemed like ages. He expected me to shake his hand. As much as I should be angry, it was my fault. I took it and shook his hand. I had to face the consequences of pushing people away. A lady came out from the theatre and told us we can go in, this was it. My mocks, after this it would only be the real exam in four months time and then it was all over. Senior school has ended and for some reason I didn't want to say goodbye, to the place, or Louis. You lost him Ava. You pushed him away, didn't tell him that you had feelings for him and now you lost him. The scene started and Louis said,

"I didn't want things to be like this, we could have lived in a cottage together, grow old together. Now we have wasted half of our lives thinking of each other yet you still don't know..." I didn't realise how similar the dialogue we had created was to our actual situation. He wasn't acting, this could easily be an argument we have when we are fifty,

"I didn't need you back then, my life is good as it is. I don't need you now either, I'm good alone."

"Please, you're no good at being alone more than I am fit for it! You pushed me away because you were scared! You were scared of trusting someone! Feeling alive!" I let him go. I lost him. I lost Louis. I lost Louis,

"I, I..." What was my lines? I looked at the lady, the first error was looking at her, it made it look like you had a mistake. The examiner stiffened and wrote something in her book. Louis got the message,  

"You're what? Please! Explain to me why you lost me foe no reason!"

I lost him. I lost him. I lost him. It was all I could think about. "Because..." I couldn't finish my sentence. I had lost him and the whole world was spinning around me i hit my head on the floor and then everything was black. Because I love you, that were the lines. I. Love. Him.

"Ava, are you awake yet." Huh, I always thought that angels would be girls. I mean, there must be an angel here because his voice was angelic. I'm not complaining, angel boys must be cute. Because his voice was so... cute. "Cute, cute, cute, cute..." I murmured and the angel laughed,