Okay like pysically I am here yes but mentally I'm sitting on the porch swng at my dad's house at 7:00 but its already dark because its the begginning of november with the weight of my small 6 year old sister next to me her presence aknoledged but not commented on blasting apocolyse by cigarettes after sex in my headphones breathing in the cold air and my lungs burn but whether its from the ache of pure longing or maybe ive just been binding to long I'll never know but I stay out anyways I stay out long after my sister leaves still not shifting staying on my side as if shes there all along until I'm dragged in at 2am by the pure force of my bladder
