White Girl Problems {#1}

Why cant white girls accept that nobodys perfect?

Tyler's POV
I've never seen Clara like this before. She has broken, she looks like a neglected doll. Her spine threatens to rip through her pale streaked skin. her hair clings to her back and tear tracks have dried up on her face.
"It's okay Clara. I'm here" I spoke softly as I went to get Clara a towel. I came back and wrapped it around her before carefully lifting her out. She didn't make any effort to struggle out of my arms. I laid her on her bed before patching up her arms.
"Courtney hates me"
"It's okay. You have me."
"But you weren't my best friend" Clara started to cry.
"I could be"
"I think I'm good"
"I'm sorry"
"Why"
"It's my fault Courtney hates you"
"Yeah you're right it is your fault"
I walked over to Clara's wardrobe to try and find some clothes for her. I pulled out a sweater and track pants from the back of her wardrobe. I went over to her drawer and sifted through her underwear until I found something that looked comfortable to wear.
"Put these on"
"I don't want to"
"Why not"
"I wanna lay here and be lonely and sad"
"You can do that with warm and dry clothes on, you're going to catch a cold"
"But I'm already cold, inside and out"
"I will just dress you myself"
Clara just continued to stare at a wall, a vacant look in her eyes.
"You asked for it"
I rubbed the majority of Clara's body dry before slipping on her underwear. When she had underwear on, I took the towel away and forced her sweater and sweatpants onto her. She laid on her side and I decided to lay next to her, draping one arm around her frail body. I could hear sobs escaping her lips as I pulled her closer to my chest, shielding her from the outside world.
"Clara"
"What"
"I love you..."
"..."
"I don't care if I seem like a heartless user or a manwhore or whatever- fuck what they think. I love you so much Clara. I care about your feelings more than mine and I have never experienced that before."
"I know" Clara whispered.
"What?"
"Alec..."
"Oh for fu-"
"Tyler this is not the time of day for me to start telling stories and arguing"
"Sorry"
"I'm sad"
"Everyone in this world is sad but the difference is they're lonely and we're not. I have you and you have me."
"Tyler?"
"Hm?"
"Don't leave me"
"Okay"
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Clara's POV
It was school today, I didn't want to make an effort. I brushed my wavy blonde hair and wore leggings and an oversized sweater.I realised my legs were unhealthily thin as I stared at myself in the mirror. I had applied no make up, the bags under my eyes were heavy and I had tear tracks dried onto my face. I slumped downstairs and pulled on my scuffed, neglected pumas.
"Hey Clara, you hungry?" asked Amber cheerily.
"No" I grumbled.
I grabbed my bag and trudged out the house, unlocking my car as I went down the porch. Every movement I did was 10 times slower than how I would normally move. My driving was terrible as I parked diagonally over the spaces in the parking lot. As soon as I entered school, all eyes were on me an I could hear gossip spreading faster than wildfire. I didn't care anymore. I approached Tyler and greeted him. He looked me up and down then returned to his conversation with his friends. Ouch. Did yesterday mean nothing? I stalked off to find Maisie and the others. I found them surrounding Courtney, who looked like a super model. As soon as I came in a metre radius they all turned to me and shot daggers. Feeling like there was nowhere else to go, I trudged to class. When I got there, the classroom was empty with the exception of Kendra. When she saw me she beamed happily and patted the seat next to her, maybe she isn't so bad. I slumped in the seat next to her.
"Guessing you heard the gossip huh?"
"Yeah it gets round pretty fast"
"You're like the only person who is talking to me right now."
"Seriously?"
"Yup"
Kendra sighed.
"This school is pathetic"
"Tell me about it"
"Well I'm on your side, we all know what Tyler's been doing behind Courtney's back"
"Yeah. hey Kendra?"
"Hm?"
"Can I hang out with you"
"Sure! I promise I'm not as boring as I look. I make myself look as nerdy as fuck and I act like I'm the outcast but I'm really not."
"What do you mean?"
Kendra pulled an article out of her bag, there was a model type girl in underwear.
"That's you?" I gasped
"Yeah. I want to keep a low profile so this stays between you and me."
"Okay deal"
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When I entered my house I kicked off my pumas and broke down outside the door. I was home alone so it was safe to display how I felt. I was disrupted by a knock at the door. I hesitantly opened it and regretted the moment I did. Tyler had the nerve to show up. He walked in my house and shut the door behind him, I rushed upstairs. "Hey Clara wait up" called Tyler
I whipped my head around and glared
"What do you want?"
"I want to be with you"
"Oh really, is that why you pretend like I'm the scum of the earth in public"
"Well I do have a reputation"
"That's all you care about. Shallow bastard."
"I love you"
"Well you don't show it" I screamed, tears running down my face.
"I'm sorry"
I shoved him, causing him to wobble but fail to topple downstairs.
"But you're really not"
I stormed into my room and slammed the door, he trailed in behind me. He just stared at me before moving an inch closer.
"What have you eaten today?"
"Nothing"
"Why?"
"I wasn't hungry. Too stuffed on bullshit."
"I said I was sorry okay?"
"Bullshit! Bull. shit."
"If the guys found out I hung around with the schools slu-"
"Oh no please, carry on insulting me. It sends my self esteem sky high."
"I'm sorry Clara. I'll make it up to you. I'll be with you."
He leaned in to kiss me but I stepped away.
"I can't be with you"
"Why not?"
"Leave me alone Tyler"
"What?"
"Go away Tyler" I pushed him back.
"Why?!"He roared
"Because you don't want me. Im just your rebound!" I shouted back
"You're all I ever want!" He shouted
"Go away Tyler!" I screamed, tears dripping down my face. The world threw too much at me in one go, its too much to handle. The only person I really wanted to see right now was Matt.
"I don't want to leave" Tyler stated stubbornly.
"Well I don't want to see you, I want to see Matt," I replied
Tyler laughed, clutching his sides.
"You really think Matt will hang out with you after you have become the social pariah of the school" he spat, his words digging at my heart.
"Stop hurting me"
"You're asking for it, you're being a slut, a stubborn bitch and an attention whore."
I let the tears roll freely down my eyes as I grabbed my phone.
"Get out" I screamed.
When Tyler refused to leave I physically forced him out the door, which burnt all my energy. He tried to re- enter but I slammed myself against the door, making it difficult to come in. I dialled Matt's number and he picked up after 4 rings.
"Sup Clars"
"Matt, has Maisie turned you against me."
"Nah I still love ya" Matt slurred.
"Good. Can you come over?"
"Sure, I'll be there in 10 mins tops"
"Love you"
"Love you too"
I clicked the hang up button before shouting through the door.
"Go home Tyler. I have Matt now"
"Fine, but when he leaves you, don't come running back to me" Tyler snarled.
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" I'm going to kill that little shit" Matt grumbled.
"No no you're not supposed to tell anyone" I begged.
Matt was drunk once again, so I had a lot of options on what I could do. Being the idiot I am I always choose the most life threatening one.
"Hey Matt?"
"Hm?"
"Drive me to Starbucks?"
"Okay" he laughs.
Matt led me to his range rover and sped off as soon as I sat down. Seeing Matt's lack of focus and high speed driving scared me. We were on the motorway and all I could hear was blaring car horns and cussing as Matt drove. He turned to me and my eyes widened with alarm, a car was changing into our lane. The car was going at a sensible pace so it would be dangerous but that's not what worried me. Courtney was speeding in the lane opposite and I could see her indicating which meant she would directly hit our car.
"Change lanes" I screamed
"Huh?"
Without thinking, I grabbed the steering wheel and swerved it into the next lane. We smashed into the car in the lane and Courtney's collided, knocking the door off my side. A horn blared from behind us and before I knew it our car was somersaulting into the side of the road and something heavy was cracking the roof of the car. Seeing the ditch closeby , I unclipped Matts seatbelt and hauled him out the car, causing him to roll into the ditch. I proceeded to climb over but was halted when the roof started to collapse. Before I knew it the windows shattered and the weight was forced onto me, crushing every inch of me. I closed my eyes and waited for my short painful breaths to end. Darkness.
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Authors note:
So do you guys think Courtney is the biggest bitch ever? Do you think Tyler is the meanest guy? Comment what you think :) sorry I haven't updated in ages- I've been working on gaining Instagram followers. Ill try and update more regularly.
Ellie
Xoxo