distressed.

silent tears and unshed tears.

3 years. 3 years and all for nothing. 3 years gone because of who knows what. silent tears and hoarse voices, angry eyes and terrified souls. clueless is what they were, they didnt know what to do. forever together but what happens when that forever didnt last.

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oikawa sighed as he blinked the tears away, frantically packing his clothes into a duffel bag. funny. its funny that this is how everything turned out. he couldnt help but laugh. he ran his hands against the walls and furniture, savouring every texture and feeling. who knows maybe this is the last time he'd step into this house he shared, shared with a certain spiky haired male. eyes scanning across the living room, bidding a small farewell and he left. to where? no one knows well atleast no one he cared about knows. he planned on going back to his mothers house a few hours away in the country side. he knew iwa knew where his mothers was but maybe just maybe he hoped that iwa would come for him. maybe.

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he didnt expect him to leave, he never wouldve thought that he'd actually leave but as iwaizumi swept over the house, looking for a bounce of brown hair or a twinkle from his mischievous smile. he realised that he was gone. never would he have expected this. he expected that he would come home to him on their couch, sniffling with some cocoa because he was always cliche. not looking up when iwaizumu entered and would give him the cold shoulder. maybe they wouldve talked, listen to eachothers rant and cuddle it out but no, he came home to nothing. the closet half full and only the lingering smell of cologne.

at first he wanted to call him,text him,email him, he wanted to do everything and anything to get his oikawa back. dramatic as it is, oikawa genuinely added colour to his life. green, a colour he never paid attention to now sparked joy in his heart. green like the dumb alien figure on oikawa study table, green like his housing community volleyball team, green like the colour of his nails because makki once dared him to get his nails done green and hes been obsessed ever since. he wanted to do everything to at least contact his boy back but ego got in the way. minutes turned to hours, hours to days, days to weeks.
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its been 3 weeks. has iwa, his beloved iwa gave up on him. not even one text or a phone call, hell oikawa would settle for a facebook gif all he wanted to know if iwa still cared. if he was willing to put all those memories of them behind and forgotten but oikawa wouldnt, he couldnt and would never put his ego aside and do what both of them wanted so much. fingers ghosting over his contact name, name on his tip tongue, craving for a call.

soon after weeks turned into months, months into longer months and finally years. the name iwaizumi no longer in his mind nor memory. the nickname iwa-chan doesnt even ring a bell to him anymore.

now 40 years old, married to a brunette brazillian babe, the only one who could compete with oikawa in his looks. forgotten was the number 4, a man with spiky hair and rough attitude. forgotten was the soft kisses and touches they shared, tears and words of comfort given during restless nights. forgotten was the 16 years they spent together. studying,practicing doing whatever two madly inlove teenagers would do.

iwaizumi married a girl from his training centre, both now living the life as the athletic couple and is expecting soon but iwaizumi never forgot. he never forgot how the way oikawas hair bounces, the pout he does when hes hungry and how his eyes sparkle when they cuddle but that was all old news. forgotten and dumped.

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"do you remember iwaizumi? from our seijoh volleyball team in hs"

intrigued and surprised by this surprise text from makki, oikawa quickly replied with "yeah?"

makki was typing for what seemed forever. one thousand thoughts went through oikawas mind. iwaizumi, what happened to him. is he married now, is he sick, oh my god please dont tell me hes sick. he was snapped out of his thoughts with a ping from his phone. makki finally replied

"hes got a son recently,his name is tooru"