Say Hello, Wave Goodbye -- Louis Partridge

14. Turning Tables

The exam went... well. There was no fainting and a heck lot of fake tears. After the exam Louis left without even saying bye, that was great, too. I kept telling myself I was okay. I didn't need Louis in my life, I was doing great before him too. What was with that word? Great... My other exams were good and suddenly I found myself saying that I had finished my mocks. They were easier than I thought they'd be which is a good thing I think.

This week was sort of the rebound week. We would start to dig deeper into our subjects but not that deep as we were supposed to know everything. In Drama, I sat at the front because Louis was at the back and I didn't want to look at him. He said we were still friends but honestly I don't even know what we are anymore. We are acting like we've been through this weird break up, we were never in a relationship in the first place.

"So, so, so, with mocks out of the way I think it's time for a fresh slate, new topics, new partners." I stiffen. Drama was the only excuse I had to talk to Louis, now, I didn't have anything. "This time, you get to choose your partners." Yay, like I know anyone in this class. I don't look back, knowing the class will be searching for their friends. Ugh.

"Ava, you wanna be partners?" I look up and see Matt, I was suddenly surprised at how tall he was. If Louis was tall then, Matt was a giant.

"It depends, what song did you shuffle on your playlist in the first lesson in September?"

"Do I wanna Know, Arctic Monkeys?" It wasn't the best, but it was acceptable.

"Then, yes, we can be partners." He looks at me like I'm crazy and I laugh,

"I'm messing with you, I would have still said yes. It's better then having someone you don't know." He sat besides me,

"I guess you never considered Louis."

"No, no I didn't."

"I wouldn't either if I turned someone down." Wait, what?

"He told you?"

"That you didn't have feelings for him? Yes. Sorry if I just overstepped it, but we are also kind of close."

"It's fine. It's just, I mean. I wouldn't put it in words as turn someone down... it almost makes it sound as if I rejected him." I had lost my thoughts. If we didn't have an argument, would I be in Louis' arms right now? Would he be resting his head on my shoulder while I try to make him start the drama task?

"Well, that's what happens when you say you don't have feelings for someone." I looked around to see if anyone was listening, it was fine, each pair were having their own conversations. Louis was with Carly's best friend, Amanda. Suddenly I felt my eyes stinging, water was filling them up. I turned around to Matt.

"Who says I didn't have feelings for him?" Matt raised an eyebrow,

"Then, the only other possible conclusion is you are not ready to be in a relationship, you could have told him you know, maybe you would still be friends right now."

"Yeah, I guess I wasn't ready. I didn't want to lose someone again. Don't tell me it's not bound to happen because if we didn't lose these school relationships then everyone would be married to their since seventeen sweethearts." Matt snorted and carried on with his advice, I was surprised how easy it was to talk to him about Louis, maybe boys were just less problematic all together.