Vent book

11/9/20 trigger warning

4 times and none of them worked none of them why am I still breathing

Why won't you just fucking let me kill myself it's not worth it to stay alive

Heh fucking shit up, being yelled at, being cured as. Being blamed for everything wrong, I should be normalized to all of that by now but somehow I'm not

Hell even people being annoyed or anger near me will set me off to just start crying

This times he fucking screamed at me, I'm trying my hardest sorry I don't see why to put effort in anymore, I don't want to be here anyways and it seems like he doesn't too

So yeah I'm fucking a fucking screw up of a child the words you used, but your not any better by manipulation, you make everyone feel bad and you turn others problems on to yourself, and then take it out on me

I can say I'm better I'm somewhat manipulative, at least I don't try and hurt people on purpose

You know I want to go see my mom
I want to be with her again

Im gonna try again, with my two best friends a bottle off pills and a bottle of jack.
One of my favorite songs bullet by Hollywood undead

See you everyone
11/9/20
But if I survive I'll see you tomorrow