A paper of my life

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TV shows, programs, books, libraries, and school! Were and still are a huge part of my life, they seem boring! But that's the way people see it, you have to respect it to love it, and love it in order to accept it, those diamonds taught me everything. I used to watch, read and listen to how people live! To how reality goes on. How each human being has got their own concerns, habits, moments, ways, thoughts, feelings, and memories happy ones or sad ones. How each heart has a limit of accepting reality, and how when things go off limit! Tears start falling down, anger increases, cheeks blush, hands start shaking, and the heart starts boiling.

Why don't people take it easy on themselves and others around them I always asked myself! Never found a realistic or perfect answer. So I made up my decision in life, I decided what my goal will be! I decided to help people indeed, people who have no one to talk to, and people with no suitable financial situation that allows them to build themselves.

I knew it needed work to get to it, but I believed in it and most of all believed in myself, I decided to be strong, I didn't want anybody to suffer what I suffered, and saw others suffering! I got good marks, made good friendships, had good teachers, and always remembered my goal.

My time didn't help me much! I had to stay at work for five hours daily to provide myself, and to help my family, I worked in a restaurant! And it was terribly hard to study there. I had to do everything quickly when I get home and most of times, I didn’t get enough sleep, my eyes were always puffed, and my face was pale. People sometimes came to ask me if I were sick! And my usual respond would be that I was just a little tired. Truth is, NO I weren't just a little tired, I was exhausted and NO I weren't sick! I was just working my best to pass through one of my life's tests, hard? Yeah actually can't deny that! But I always knew it would be over, it just needed some patience and strength! I knew I had them. I worked on myself harder and harder each day. Till I became the man I am today, a man who's not goal is to get paid, have a perfect CV and who's name is current from one person to a another, but a man who's satisfied for opening his heart to people who had no one to talk to, and to people who need medical care, yes I'm a doctor and a shrink. And I have absolutely no problem fitting in, I'm prouder than ever for being the man I've always saw in my dreams.

I've not only taken care of my study and job, but also my family, I'm not only working on my present and my future but also working hard on my last, on the character I'll leave life with, the prints I'll leave in people's heart .. when I die, I want to die with treasures left behind, I want to make my everyone proud or at least happy.. When I make a good thing I always aim hard for it and picture my mom standing next to me, helping me and advising me with her honey talk.. My mom,the person who taught me everything and loved me like nothing else.. It's been three years since she passed away, but in my heart she never did.. cause the effects she left behind are still facing me day by day. A half of my month salary goes to charity, and the other half goes for me and my family to provide ourselves with. Yeah I'm married now..I'm married to a princess who's with me on each step I make in life, I have two kids, a boy and a girl. I'm working hard to be a perfect modal for them, a story they tell to friends, and a friend.

I'm happier than ever, and I believe that my journey is not over yet, I still have a long way to go. I'm thirty five now and I promised myself I'll keep going till the the day I'm meant to die.