Self Harmed (Louis Tomlinson)

Him.

Him. He flutters though my mind over and over, a light in the dark you could say. But I'm not happy, no never have been for 12 years. and I'm 22. Hello my name is Kayla, my hair is blondeish and my eyes are super dark brown. My life has been more than bumpy for 12 years. Dad murdererd when I was seven and my baby sister, Kara, was only just born, My mom ran away soon after that, hoping to find his body and at least have a piece of him, but its been 11 years. I had to raise my sister up untill she was 10, she believed she could take care of herself. I let her. When I was fifteen I met a guy, light brown hair and blue eyes. His name was Louis. He wasn't famous then but these days, I barely see him. I was sitting on the couch when it took over me, I knew Louis wouldn't be home soon. I grabbed the blade and cut and cut, about an hour later, I was working on my fourth and final limb, when I heard keys jiggling through the door. Oh shit I said in my mind. Louis was home, I changed into pants and a long sleeved shirt super fast. "babe" he said looking at me,confused, "why are you wearing a sweater in the middle of july in Doncastor?" then it struck him, he swore and yelled at me, the only words I could make out were," YOU PROMISED THAT IF WE GOT A NEW HOME AND A FRESH START YOU'D BE OVER DEPRESSION BUT NOOO" I relized the door was still open, I ran out. Louis yelled my name with a choke in his voice, but I didn't dare look back. He was just like the other boys," why dont you break up with her all she does is cut" I played their words in my mind over and over again. I was still running, I had already ran half a mile and I had run up to my sisters. I ran in her house, sobbing and choking on tears. I explained what happened with an added," Doesn't he know it isn't easy to get over depression?" I spent the night there then I heard a call in the morning. I answered, to tired to check the name. "Hello?" I said Tiredly. " Your not in bed, not next to me, that bothers me" I hung up immediantly and sighed. He texted me later.

Baby? Come home I need you! Xx-L
No you don't, just listen to the f'n boys and find a girl without depression =((- K
Baby PLEASE! At least tell me where you are Xx-L
Round my sisters xx-K
Coming to get you, or you won't like the punishment if you resist Xx-L
No Louis, I'm not your slave, and you can't make me xx-K
 I didn't mean it like that baby, just come home now Xx-L
 
I just swollowed the breakfast Kara made me and waited for Louis's car, and thought about the boys, Harry, Niall, Liam, and Zayn, Liam didn't talk to me like the other boys, after all I am a little bit older. I got into his car as it pulled up. He put his arm around me, I resisted,"Just drive!" I said, annoyed with his fucking mind games. When we got home I sat on the couch,"Let me see" he said, pulling my sleeve back, I jerked it back,"Now why the fuck would you care?" I said looking at him madly. He sighs and goes up to our room. An hour later he comes back down, looking happy, too happy. I immediently get susicious and run up to the room,"Kalya, no get down here," Louis screams. When I walk in, I hear a girl, maybe my age say,"Ready for round 2 that quick?" He was having sex with another girl! I stomp down the stairs yelling,"LOUIS WILLIAM TOMLINSON YOU ARE A FUCKING ASSHOLE, A BITCH A-" He stops me and says calmly," Do you want to care or want me to leave" I give him a look, it said, Don't bother, already leaving. He grabs my arm, that is still hurt and says," Baby please, don't leave again." I just jerk my arm away and say," Whoever that girl was, she can have you, she oviously doesn't have depression" I cry as I walk away from my home, for the second time of my life.

                                                               Louis Pov
I watch her walk away, Kayla Dylion (Dye-l-on) the best thing to ever happen to me, all because my sister was drunk. I cry as I watch her run across the street, with her hurt legs. I stomp up the stairs, like she did and yell at Charlotte," GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE," I yelled. She stared and said,"Baby we had fun..." I fucking yelled at her again,"YOU DRUNK ASS BITCH, I'M CALLIN MOM!" An hour later I was alone, I called Liam over since he loved Kayla, but nowhere near as much as me. "what are you gonna do" He asked me,"I-I don't know."