Why Me?

08 Unwanted

Eight and a half years later.

"No." I whisper to myself as I sit on the bathroom floor. "It can't be." I cry as I look at my hands. He's gonna kill me. Kill it.

"You okay momma?" My little nearly nine year old angel asks as he opens the door. I try to hide the test but he sees it. "What's that momma?" Andy asks with his little head tilted to the side.

"Andy, I need you to promise me you won't tell your father about this! Promise me!" I beg.

"Will he hurt you?" My boy asks and I have to choke a sob. No child should know a life like he has. "I won't let him hurt you momma."

I can see bruises on his arms and pull him to me.

"What happened baby?" I ask him. He looks away and pulls his arm from me.

"I was late. He sent me home to put on a long sleeved shirt. Can't have the pack know what he does." He hisses. He knows more than he should. He has seen more than any eight year old should and I can't save him. "What does that mean, momma." He asks again putting attention back on the test in my hand.

"It means I'm pregnant... you're gonna have a baby brother or sister." I explain.

"And Father doesn't want that." He states. I wanna cry at how much he knows. How much I've failed to hide from him. "He will hurt you... hurt the baby... make it go away."

"How do you know that, Andy?" I ask. I thought I'd hidden that much from his young eyes.

"Its happened before. You told him about a new baby then he hit you in the belly over and over. Then you didn't say anything else about a baby... did he send it away? Did you return the baby because he got mad? Did he make you send it away?" He innocently asks. I guess he doesn't fully understand. How can I explain it to him?

"No, baby, we didn't send the baby away... you see a baby grows in its momma's tummy for a few months before it is born. If the momma gets hurt it can make the baby can get hurt too. The baby goes to heaven and never gets born." I try to explain. He seems to think for a moment before speaking.

"It goes to heaven like Gran and Pop... but they died... so the baby died... but it was because Father hurt you... he killed my baby sister?! Momma did he? Did he kill my sister?" I see tears in his eyes and pull him into my arms.

"I don't know if it was a boy or girl but... yes, he did. That's why you can't tell him about this." I tell him. He's to young to put this on but I can't lose another pup.

"Don't worry momma. He won't take this one away from us." My little boy vows with a growl. "Ronnie's mom had a pup and she went to the doctor a lot. You should see doc Green to check on the baby. Father said we'll be training late tonight. If you are quick he will never know... and I think it was a girl... what did you name her?" I'm stunned by the question. My baby girl. What would I have named her?

"Rose Marie." I whisper.

"Well I can't wait to see her some day... momma, take care of this one." He says putting a hand on my flat stomach. "I'll take care of my father."

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"Momma, different shirt!" Andy hisses as I leave my room.

"Why baby? It's your birthday I thought I'd dress up." I smile down at my little man.

"Momma please! I see my brother." He tells me as he pulls me in front of the mirror. He's right. At three months it's hard to hide it.

"Andy, I can't hide him any more. He's to big." I tell him and I see him panic.

"He'll kill him!" He shrieks.

"I'll figure something out. I can't take you getting hurt either, baby. Don't think I don't know how you've been distracting your father." I scold him.

I learned a couple weeks ago that my little Andy has taken his role as big brother to an extreme. I wondered why as soon as I started to show my mate stopped coming into my bed. Apparently Andy has been causing mischief to keep his father busy an has been taking a beating for it. My little protector.

"He won't hurt my brother, momma. I won't let him!" Andy growls.

"Find another way Andrew or I'm telling him. If he finds out on his own it will be worse." I watch his little brain work then his face lights up.

"Momma stay hidden till the party. I promise father won't hurt you." He says then runs off.

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Andy POV

I know what to do. I walk downstairs and just as I thought my father invited lots of Alphas. I find the biggest group of them and walk over.

"Hello, Alphas!" I say with a bow, a big smile on my face.

"Little Carson, happy birthday pup!" One Alpha greets me. I hate when they use my first name.

"You excited boy? Another year older." Another says.

"Yes sir!" I nod. "But I'm more excited about my baby brother! Momma says he'll be her in two months! Father is excited too! He said he always wanted a big family!" I lie with a massive grin on my face. Let's see him get out of this!

"How we doing, boys?" My father asks putting a hand on my shoulder as he approaches. Oh yes act like a dad when the Alphas are around! Pffft!

"Your boy just mentioned the good news! Congrats on the new pup! Glad you could finally have another!" One of the Alphas says. I can feel the grip on my shoulder tighten.

"Yes, thank you." My father forces a laugh. "I need to talk to my son a moment. Excuse me." He drags me into the house and into an empty room before throwing me against the wall.

"What was that about?" He growls.

"Momma's pregnant." I tell him. "But it's not like before. She is showing. The other Alphas know. So of my brother isn't born in the next couple months they will look down on you! If you lay a hand on her I'll tell everyone how you have killed your own children! They may just challenge you for your position. No one wants a baby killer as an Alpha." I am shaking. I know nothing means more to him than being Alpha. I know he won't kill me because I'm his heir. He's told me that enough times. I'm gonna protect momma and this was the best solution.

"You're gonna pay for this boy! That cretin your mother grows will never be my son. I will not accept it... If it survives that is." He hisses.

"You won't hurt him! I'm serious father! I will out you if you hurt them." I threaten. He is quick to punch me in the belly and I fall to the floor. He pulls me up by my hair to look at him.

"Fine, pup. You want the thing inside your mom so be it. There will be punishment for lying to me these past months... and you will pay for anything your mother does until her spawn is out. Enjoy your party because these next couple months will be Hell for you." He hisses then knees me in the belly again.

It takes me a while before I can rejoin the party. I still hurt but I'm used to this. I put on a fake smile and mingle like a happy little Alpha pup. At least Momma and the baby are safe even if my brother is unwanted by our father I will protect him.