Perfect (on hold)

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Chapter 1

In live we wish a lot of things. You know people who wish for money, power, health, luck, love... I call them big wishes. Why big? Because one day when I looked around me, I saw that we wish a lot of things in every minute. Like when we wake up and look in the mirrow, we wish for perfect, not messy hair. When we eat, we wish that food wouldn´t mean extra pounds for us or when we get on the bus, we wish that we would found a free seat.

Those are that small wishes we don´t even know we wish for. Like now I wish that I could close my eyes and only say or think of some place and then I would open my eyes and be there.

But that can´t come that easy. Not for me. I must run down the stairs, call the taxi just to notice that there isn´t any that will see me even if I wave around like some crazy woman. When I lose all hope I wait for green light only to see that this isn´t going to help me to get on the other side of the road because of the traffic. When I finally get on the other side I must go along the street into the biggest group of people.

There are a lot of shops around and that is my weakness. I love to shop so I can´t just walk away when I see inside one shop a perfect dress for me. And it´s even in my favourite color - red. It´s short with little details on the top and I must to try it on... So I go in the shop to the dress. I find last one in my size and go try it on. It´s perfect. It´s elegant and shows all my curves on the right places. Happy I went to the cash-register to pay it but then I saw the prize of the dress. It´s too much for me and not for once but for twice.

So I hang it back and go outside in the crowd again. That isn’t my day just like yesterday with my best friend. Then I remembered why I came down here in the first place and looked on the watch. I was 30 minutes late! (Ugh, Mia  will be angry again.) I run through the group of people as fast as I can and when I looked on the left i saw her sitting and drinking coffee.

"Where were you?! I came here like a hour ago. You know how I never like to be alone!"

"I know but the traffic is so big that you can´t even walk where you want." I answer her.

"And now you will tell me that you really wanted to get here but then that traffic push you in some shop and didn’t let you outside anymore?"

(Yes, she knows me too well.)

When I was 4 years old she move in my neighbourhood with her mother so we grew up together and when we were 6 years old we became best friends. She is the only child just like me and maybe because of this we love and look for each other like sisters we never had.

I sat next to her and looked at her with my puppy eyes: ˝You know I just couldn’t go past it like I didn’t see it, Mia…˝

˝Yeah, you will never change, Emma.˝

And with that I knew that she forgived me. Like I said – she loves me.

˝So what  will you be doing this weekend?˝

˝I don’t know jet… how about we could go on party this Saturday?˝

I can´t belive this. She knows how I hate to go to parties.

˝I don’t know, Mia.. I have a lots of work to do home and go find me a better job maybe?˝

˝You can´t be serious! You have to go out sometimes you know? But… you said that because really don’t want to go, don’t you?˝

˝Ok, I won´t lie. You know how I never liked parties...˝

˝Emma. It will be fun. I promise...˝ I didn’t know what to say to her so she took my hand and continue: ˝ I know that you lost your mum 5 months ago, but you can´t hide yourself from the world for the rest of your life now. I know she would say that to you if she could, because she loved you so much.˝

With that I remembered my promise I gave her - To be brave enough to love, dream and live with everything I have.

I really miss her and think of her everyday but Mia is right. She wouldn’t like me to be like this.

So this is my first book/chapter.. what do you think?