I am sitting at the edge of the Astronomy Tower, looking down wondering if i should jump or not. Not like anyone's going to miss a useless piece of crap like me.. I'm annoying, loud, dense, dumb, useless, everyone keeps saying that, Mother keeps telling me that, I guess Harry and Hermione are nice but... once they find everything out they will hate me and then I will have no-one, and I'll be completely useless...
----That Morning----
I was stuffing my face like a pig, and being as annoying, dense, and idiotic as I can be, My friends sitting either side of me, when we are heading to class I manage to break through the compulsions on me and go to the bathroom to throw up everything I ate, after I'm done throwing up I sit on the floor back against the cubical wall, I feel so fucking useless, Dumbledore and Mother force me to participate in this plan of theirs for Harry, and I can't tell him anything or someone dies and I get the blame.... I don't want anyone to die, why am I so useless... I'm nothing special not the first born like Bill, not a dragon expert like Charlie, not a second Percy, not a smart prankster like the twins and not a girl like Ginny, I am dumb dense and mess everything up, not to mention my crush on Blaise, when mother found out she was furious for
1. falling for a 'death eater'
and
2. for being gay. I don't understand, and even if I manage to confess to him he would look at me in disgust and reject me, mother made sure of that, made sure I seemed like the most disgusting thing on earth in front of Blaise, she would reprimand me for things I didn't do infront of Blaise, she would make me act like a dense idiotic pig to get rid of the attraction of my personality and then put a glamour on me to make me look as ugly as possible while still looking apart of the family, plus why would anyone love a weak, broken thing such as myself? no-one.... I get up flush the toilet and clean up before going to class, before I am overcome with the compulsions again.
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Ronald Weasley x Blaise Zabini
FanfictionA little side story. this is what goes through Ron's head and his perspective on things. oh- and I don't own anything of the Harry Potter series they all belong to J.K Rowling ⚠Warning⚠ self harm suicidal thoughts lot's of gay and a lot of bashing- ...
