30 Days | hunhan { SLOW UPDATE}

Prologue

I just want go back to the time were it was just the two of us, sitting by the stairs, talking about our similarities and differences.

I miss that, I really do.

You told me that you liked me, and I did too. I remember you comforting me, when I was tired of practicing and tired doing everything to please them. You were there for me, and I thank you for that. Both of us wished that they won't separate us, but I guess being an idol means giving up everything I love... I guess including you.

That night, when we were beneath the stars. I saw the most beautiful human I ever laid my eyes on. He was the most precious person in my life. I wished that you would stay by my side forever, like what he promised me.

You said. "I won't go, I promise. We are one, right?"

You promised...You promised me that you won't leave me.

I guess promises were meant broken, not kept.

I have exactly thirty days to try and tell you...

Winter night was my favourite, and being with you on that night made me realise that you are important in my life. I remember both of us sitting on the couch, side by side with our hands entwined as it rested on my lap. I looked at you and smiled, you did the same. You looked up at me as you rested your head on the crook of my neck with layers of blankets on top of us, sipping on our hot chocolate and enjoying each other's company. That was also the first time you told me that you love me. I replied by only kissing the top of your head.

I should've told you that 'I love you too'.

I should've...

You fell asleep, resting your head on my shoulder with our hands still entwined. I would always kiss the top of your hand whispering that I will be forever beside you. I was stupid for not saying that I really love you. We often express our love with kisses and other physical contacts. We kept our love a secret, and distance ourselves when the others are with us, so they wouldn't hurt you or me. I wish we could just runaway to a place where they wouldn't find us; just us together, no one else.

I slowly rest my head on yours, also slowly drifting off to sleep. When I woke up finding you beside me, my heart would beat a little faster than usual. A simple, yet caring smile appears on my face as you flutter those eyes open making me fall in love with you all over again. I would cup your face and lean in to give you a warm kiss to your forehead, and greeting you "Good Morning." You would smile up at me and I do the same. But, instead of my forehead, you lean in and kiss the corner of my lips.

I want to go back to that time again, just to feel your love.