Heaven

Can't keep running

When I see him, time stops. All those feelings I had bottled up resurface and tears starts streaming down my face. It feels somewhat like meeting Will, but this is worse, much worse because I had no choice over what I did to Will and although Al made his own decision to jump, I couldn't feel more guilty. I can faintly hear Will closing the door on his way out through my heartbeats that are threatening to erupt through my chest. When I first came here and lay in the hospital bed, I didn't really imagine myself crying so much. Pictures of him, dead in the water, flashes through my mind and I can hardly believe the same man is standing in front of me right now.

"You look exactly the same." he comments. I think I laugh. I stand in the same position while he moves towards me. I'm in between sobbing and laughing when I think about how messed up everything is. This situation shouldn't even be real. He starts to mumble apologies and starts crying too. He hugs me and I think about pulling away, but even though I should probably be mad, I can't imagine losing anybody else in any kind of way.

"Okay." I say, trying to stop crying.

"How many more people do I have to meet? Prim told me about some of them, but she didn't mention what kind of system you guys have."

Al looks unsure at me like I'm about to break. I don't doubt that's probably how he felt when he first got here, but I'm not him.

"Are you sure you're fine?" He asks me. Concern obvious in his voice.

He probably still remembers me as that scared little Abnegation girl everyone looked at me like. I got rid of that image a long time ago and he needs to know that's not me anymore.

"Look, Al, I've seen more death and I've experienced more betrayal than you could ever imagine so coming here is an alright way to move on. Now will you please tell me what this place is?" He looks defeated and sighs, but answers.

"There is a lot of things you'll have to adjust to," I shoot him a warning glare, playful enough so he knows I won't kill him, but serious enough so he knows I'm not joking.

"but," he continues "you'll adjust just fine." His mouth curves up into a smile and he laughs, his cheeks still wet with tears. He stops almost immediately like he did something he wasn't supposed to do, but starts talking before I have a chance to question it.

"Everyone here comes from different places. Universes if you will. Just like we had factions, Prim and Rue had districts and this kid Augustus had cancer which is some kind of disease, but don't worry, it's not contagious and there is this really cool guy that used to be a werewolf and they had magic! Can you believe that?" He keeps talking about all the parents that are reunited with their children and all the children that still long for their parents. We keep talking for a while after about everything that has been going on. I can easily say that my life after his death has been a lot more adventurous that his has been.

He tells me I can live with my family and he also says that the kids who doesn't have their parents up here, lives with the adults that volunteer to take care of them. I ask about Prim and he tells me about her family. Prim has a sister, Katniss, who fought in something called The Hunger Games and her mother was still down on earth with her. Her father however, was with Prim. He came here a couple of years before and had been taking care of the kids from their part of the world till she arrived, now Prim only lives with another young girl called Rue and her father. It saddens me how many children there are here.

I'm pretty sure It's going to take me a while to remember and understand the different kind of worlds and universes because even though I was part Erudite, this is way out of my reach. After we talked for what seems like hours, I leave and walk around the "town." I think again of how Tobias is doing and my eyes tear up. I look up, imagining the sun will make them disappear, but no such luck. I bump into someone as I day dream about how my life would've been if I'd still be alive and fall. Just as I was hitting the ground, someone grabs my hand and pulls me up. Baffled, I look up and scream.

"Caleb?" I ask. He can't be up here. I risked my life so he wouldn't be up here.

"What the hell are you doing here?" I yell at him. I look at him more closely and although he looks exactly the same, his hair is different and he as a white tube sticking out of the corner of his mouth. He sticks his arms out to get some distance between us and repeats for me to wait.

"Are you the new girl?" He asks me. Doesn't he remember me? How can that be possible?

"Don't freak out!" He tells me. Panic is written all over his face.

"I'm not your brother, Natalie and Andrew thought the same when they first got here, but I'm not him." I rub my temple with my fingers and moan. This is way too much for a girl to process in one day.

"Who are you then?" I can feel myself getting a headache and I imagine myself back in the hospital bed in Dauntless.

"Augustus Waters." He answers proud fully, grinning from ear to ear. He extends his arm and I shake it.

"Nice to meet you."

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Author's Note:

I know this is a pretty short chapter and I know It might be a little boring, but I have been extremely busy and I will probably make it up to you. Thank you so much for reading this and if you feel like voting and commenting, that wouldn't be so bad ;)

-R