Wake me up at 4:20/ Frerard

Challenge 42

A:N: Sorry for not updating in forever!! This is my longest chapter so far, with just around 150 words shy of being 10,000 words long.

Also at this point of the book, I don't really think you need trigger warnings if you've made this this far but I'm going to say anyways that there's a lot of sexual trauma in this chapter

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Frank curled up against Gerard, feeling his boyfriend's arms around him that felt so warm and calming. "Baby," He whispered softly, tilting his head upward to kiss at Gerard's jaw.

"Hmmm?" Gerard hummed tiredly, instinctively tilting his head to the side to give Frank more space to kiss and (If this was going to be a good morning) bite. Frank giggled, just leaning up a little more to press a kiss against his lips before having to force himself to pull away. "Heyyy," Gerard complained, "Where you going?" He pouted, sitting up slowly. His bed-head hair stuck out of different angles, making Frank chuckle to himself because of how it looked.

"To take a piss," Frank snickered, brushing back his equally-as-messy hair, "I had to hold it in all night, you practically had me in a vice grip," He teased and Gerard blushed.

"Wanna take a shower together after?" Frank heard his boyfriend ask from behind the bathroom door. He bit his lip, hesitating because he still had bruises that littered his body that Gerard hadn't even seen yet. He knew he'd assume they were from Bert, but he didn't want him asking too many questions about them for what little sanity he had left.

"Um, sure," Frank replied, taking a moment too long to answer. Frank took a quick glance at his phone to see if he had received his challenge, and he had.

BWC- Eat rat meat

Frank stomach dropped and he contorted his face into one of disgust. If he had to pick his least favorite challenge, it'd be this one. At least with the killing it was usually problematic people, although him from a month ago would probably disagree and his stomach would lurch at the thought of taking another's life. He finished up and washed his hands before shutting off his phone. Frank started the shower water so it'd heat up by time they got undressed. Gerard opened the bathroom door and stepped in before starting to get undressed himself.

Gerard frowned as Frank undressed, instantly noticing the brown and purple welts that adorned his skin. Some ranged from the size of a small bottle cap to being as large as Gerard's palm. "F-Frank?" He said quietly, "I-is that all from...him?" He questioned, deciding against the use of Bert's name. His eyes were wide, filled with worry and Frank swore he could see his eyes turn glossy with unshed tears. Gerard made to take a step forward, instinctively wanting to pull Frank into a tight hug but he wasn't sure if Frank would be comfortable in him doing that.

Frank gave a short nod, not too keen in informing Gerard that a lot, mostly the larger ones, were also from tackling Bob and falling against the pavement. "I-I'll be okay," He mumbled, holding his hand under the spray of the water and getting in after making sure the temperature was right. "I don't want it to be mentioned,". Gerard understood, because he had been there before. "How did you stay with him for so long?" Frank asked a minute later.

Gerard took a few moments to get in the shower, trying to figure how he was going to reply as he did. "I felt like he was all I deserved," He finally admitted, "I was a shitty person too, Frank-,"

"So you deserved to have a rapist as a boyfriend?" Frank frowned, "You may have been an addict and an alcoholic, but you weren't so bad to-,"

"Drinking alcohol and doing drugs isn't the only characteristics of being an addict, Frank," Gerard sighed, "I'd steal money from my parents, I'd have anger issues, especially with Mikey, I was gross and never really cared about how others felt as long as I was getting some sort of high or some sort of buzz...because I never really felt alive. So, I was just some self-loathing teen and yeah, I let Bert take advantage of me....a lot. We started dating and he saw me as someone he could fuck whenever he wanted to and..... I saw him as a way to get free drugs and alcohol...," He continued, "He'd cheat on me whenever I'd try to stand up for myself against him, I don't know why...maybe to just subtly let me know that he could replace me. It worked, it always worked. That's why I-I thought you were trying to cheat on me, because I had- had been mad at you," Gerard's eyes reddened and Frank realized he was crying, "Because I didn't want sex...,".